A Little Reassurance

My whole day was off today. I woke up at a later hour than I like, I didn’t get my daily drawing done until later than I like. I missed breakfast almost completely (thank you cup of oatmeal for coming to the rescue). I just barely got all the laundry done and I had planned to do So Much more with the day.

It wasn’t until noon that I did my devotional, and even then it’s 3 hours later that I’m writing this. I’ve just now had a proper meal, and I still haven’t even BEGUN to do the amount of drawing I’d planned on getting done this weekend.

All in all I was just off-balance.

But I went into my devotional with as much positivity as I could muster. These were my gods, my spirits, my kindred, my ancestors – My People – it was going to be okay, and maintaining/strengthening my bonds with them was more important than my pride about being timely.

I’m a creature of habit apparently, and my habit’s a bit disrupted this weekend, but that’s neither here nor there, I’ll manage. I’m pretty flexible like that.

Today’s rune drawing turned into 4 runes, vs the general three. I got a new candle, and by candle I mean beautiful clear candle-shaped lamp that has an impressive flame! A little bit of an intimidating impressive flame, it’ll take some getting used to, but it worked very well, I felt. It provided enough light to easily see by when I shut myself in my little room to cut out the strong noon sun and some of the noises of the day so I could focus.

I gave my thanks, spoke my mind and made my offerings. I meditated a bit, but I’m not sure about meditating standing up so I kept snapping out of it. I’ll have to start bringing a cushion outside so I can sit on the stone patio comfortably. Once I finish my current Norse Mythology book I can also start digging into the meditation guide that was recommended to me, and that’ll probably help a lot with doing actual bona fide trance work.

Anyway, onto the draw.

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I recognized a lot of the runes this time around. Not all by name, but I knew I’d pulled all except the second one previous to this time. It was a new, unknown to me rune, and I wasn’t sure what to make of it.

I knew the first was a symbol of the movement of energy, of turning bad to good and making bad news less. The 3rd if Wunjo – one I do know well by name, and it means joy in a lot of different ways. The 4th I recognized, but had to crack open my book to remember.

Eihwaz – The rune of paradoxes. The rune that can turn poor news good and is suggested to be inscribed on a tree that represent Yggdrasil to you. Remember it as the flow of energy up and down ones spine. Eihwaz is a good start in my opinion – that even if what follows is an outpouring of bad news, the good news is that it won’t be so bad. And if it’s good news then Eihwaz is the quiet reminder of the evergreen yew tree, most commonly believed to be the earthly equivalent of Yggdrasil – the world tree. Which, to me, brings a sense of stability and peace.

Next is Ingwaz – a rune fully new to me. It’s a rune of transitioning, from one phase to another, like winter giving way to spring and so on. There is a give and take inherent in Ingwaz to be mindful of. It speaks of sacrifice, of giving up one thing to reap the benefits of another. It’s generally good news when regarding moving from one job or project to another (Assuming you completed that job or project on good terms).

Third is Wunjo – my old friend. Wunjo is joy, but not just solitary joy, it’s group joy. The kind of happiness that brings a light into a room for friends and family. Wunjo is positive for many involved, and in a negative light it can be a sign of isolation or feelings of abandonment. In this case, Wunjo is certainly cast in a positive light, so little to no concerns there.

Finally, Othala – the rune of family of inheritance, and of bonds. It strengthens ties and family bonds – all family bonds, be they blood, spirit or past lives. I find it interesting that Othala ends the alphabet as well, acting as an anchor for family, knowledge, and spiritual wisdom. The shape of it both protects and acts as a gate. Guarding what’s inside while allowing new information to come in.

When I draw the runes I rarely have an actual question. Most often I ask only for whatever wisdom it is that my People wish to bestow on me. Many times I make the assumption that it will be related to whatever it was that I had been talking about – as, since it makes sense, I would assume that the wisdom provided would be in regards to the concerns.

In that vein I think the tradition holds true with today’s reading as well. I’m concerned about the future, about my faith, and about my job. I know I’ll be okay because I’m lucky and privileged and that even if things go legs up I’ll still find a way to be okay.

But I’m an unsure person, and some reassurance goes a long way to help calm my concerns – be they founded or otherwise. So to receive a message that says – to me – four very distinct things, vs a single idea, I feel like I got my answer/wisdom/reassurance.

That there will be bad, but I can lessen it – if not for myself than for others – and turn something awful into something as positive as possible. That I’ll transition from one job to another, but to be prepared to give something up for the move – either more time commuting, less time in comfy clothes, or I imagine a possible cut in pay. (Which would still be worth it to get away from the toxic people and blatant favoritism.) That I’ll continue to grow and bond with My People and that they’re pleased thus far by my actions and the time I can invest in my faith.

Wunjo, to me, just signifies an overall more positive vibe to the entire thing, like I need to chill a little and just enjoy that things will be okay. (Possibly it’s also assuring me that my visit back home with be joyous and not to worry about how my family will react to the news that I’m an alternative kind of religion AND practicing it regularly. I mean, they’re cool with me being, well, ME, so I doubt this news’ll change anything.)

Blessings,
Quin

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