I’m back

My absence from writing here is over! I’m back in the saddle again =D

Okay so I created this setup on a whim and just really feel like it works well for me in rune drawing. The casting wasn’t clicking with me, I needed something a little more organized.

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It’s 3 sections, with a total of 9 runes (I figured 9 was a good thing to shoot for as it’s a very powerful and repeated number in Norse mythology from what I’ve been reading). The top section is the answer to the core of the question, with the three runes in the branches being the supporting cast so to speak. These three runes can impact the core rune positively or negatively, as well as add some insight into the meaning of the core.

The secondary note for the question is centered in the trunk, with the supporting runes in the roots. This functions the same as the primary core, but it won’t override the news/vibes of the primary. It may either provide additional clarification or a warning/hope to heed after the news of the primary section.

The final rune is Fate. It’s a wildcard rune slot that may not even pertain to the query specifically but still applies to the querent.

All that said I did an initial drawing with this set for myself a week ago. My primary concern was how I was going to fit in with my new group of coworkers, and how I was going to fit in with the work itself.

OTHALA is at the core of this. It’s overall meaning is about one’s place in the community/family/etc. It can refer to getting along with roommates or finding affinity with a group. In this case, given the question put forth, I’ll go with “Finding affinity”, and take it as a positive sign toward how I’ll get on with my coworkers. (Spoiler alert, we get on very well so far!)

Supporting Othala is JERA – an all around positive rune (unless the work being done is negative). Jera is, in my opinion a sort of Reap What You Sow kind of rune. And that whatever you sow is going to come back abundantly, be it good or ill. We’ll leave this concept as mostly neutral while we see what the other two supporting runes are.

Next is EIHWAZ – the yew tree, Yggdrasil, the great connector. It could mean spiritual ascent or exploration, and a lessening of negativity – reducing a small concern into nothing, and easing the burdens of larger issues.

Finally, INGWAZ – The wanderer, the renewer. An Ending that leads to a new beginning, sacrifice for a positive outcome – or most pointedly given all other items “relief from anxiety about the change”. Which speaks volumes to me in the context of the question.

So the top portion is telling me that things will go well with my coworkers, and will continue to go positively as long as don’t drop the ball. That there’s a good connection there, of give and take, of working together and growing together, and I should do my best to not stress or be anxious – these are people who have my back and I will eventually be able to complete that cycle and return the favors once I know more.

Secondarily to this is the lower half of the tree.

At the center is TIWAZ – Tyr’s rune, and I get the feeling already that I’m being told less about work and more about my personal life. Tiwaz is a warning to prepare to fight in a legal matter or political matter. Tiwaz generally points to victory in these things, but a victory that may require some level of sacrifice. It empowers the querent to be ready to fight – with nothing legal in my future (no family disputes I’m aware of) – my initial reaction to this news is in line with the current political climate.

ELHAZ provides protection, or at the least advanced warning and luck in the “hunt” regardless of what shape that hunt may take on. This leans me toward this being a statement about something in the future that may still be looming.

DAGAZ is a bright and sunny rune – literally. It’s heavy in ‘Dawning of a new day’ and to maintain a positive outlook toward the future. Whether that process is slow and steady or if it happens all at once.

Finally, ANSUZ – mental or creativity activity in general and verbal in particular. Wisdom and the need for it and a differentiating of spiritual vs physical strength.

The lower portion is warning me of an upcoming storm, but not to fret too much, I’ve got the tools to face it and luck is on my side! I just need to keep the sharpness out of my tongue and create and speak wisely. Which makes sense, people react poorly to knee-jerk reaction inducing concepts. If I can smooth the edges of my anger I can have better discourse with others regarding political issues.

Lastly, but not least-ly I’m sure, is the Fate Rune, SOWILO. It’s my first run in with this rune so let me pull something straight from the book for a moment:

“Sowilo indicates illumination, clarification, the appearance of a guiding principle, change or development after a period of stagnation. It is a beacon of hope for those who strive. The sun rune means strength, energy, life force, success or luck, honor and achievement. It is also the light of truth and enlightened consciousness.”

An overuse of (or dependence upon) Sowilo can lead to very negative outcomes.  “In excess its force leads to willfulness, arrogance, cruelty, and isolation, the clearest example being its use as the symbol of the SS by the Nazis.” (Didn’t they fuck up whatever the swastika was originally? Didn’t they rotate something that was very Buddhist and peaceful to pervert it?)

Sowilo is my Fate rune in this reading. A warning not to get too arrogant, I think, but also a reminder that I’m on a good path and in a good place, and I should utilize this recharging ability to fight as hard as I can against the world’s current injustices.

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Single Rune

I awoke a little later than expected, and realized quickly that I’d turned my alarms off the day before because I’d woken up before they’d gone off – and then promptly forgot to turn them back on.

Fortunately I didn’t wake up so late that I was beyond the normal time frame I prefer to work within.

It’s getting cold in the desert, at least at night when there’s no clouds to keep the warmth from the day before against the ground. So I bundled up a little bit – the concrete of the patio is a little too cold for bare feet during this time of year. But I knelt and made my connection with the Earth with my hands, so I wasn’t fully disconnected.

After reaching out to Heimdall and opening the gates – and setting an offering outside of my ritual space for the Outdwellers (See? I told you I’d start to get into more details as things set into place) – I shared a round of hard cider with my People. Giving thanks for their time and patience and spending a little time bonding.

All my offerings were varying amounts of the hard cider. It’s something *I* can drink on an empty stomach without getting punchy, so when I mean to share in the offerings with my People I usually stick with it. (I’ll be honest, I could NOT drink an entire 12oz bottle of it on an empty stomach, but a few sips while honoring my People is doable. (I would connect with Norse gods while being a massive light weight)).

I usually use Moon of Dragon’s Blood incense from HEM when I’m doing my weekend devotionals, but today I’d went with Cinnamon which was a little distracting. It’s got a harsher and more pronounced scent to it than the other two, and those are much more calming for me. But Cinnamon kept me on task so I’ll not complain.

I admitted that I have something on the edges of my mind that’s bothering me. I can’t put a full finger on it – the medication I’m on (let’s be blunt here, I struggle with anxiety and am legit concerned about becoming a shut in, so I’m currently on two different meds – one daily, the other as needed – just to go out and brave crowds without panic attacks) seems to be affecting my drive to draw. Though I could just as well be in a natural slump that’s ill timed to the newly added assistance.

And the medications themselves, I don’t want to say dull, but lessen the sharpness of concern, so I don’t know if it’s stopping me from keying in on what’s around me. The daily regimen is still considered in the adjusting phase, so it’s been a lot of guess work on my – well – me-ness the last couple weeks.

So I requested some sign from my People – either reassurance that things were okay, or a warning if I needed to up my guard and that the medication was affecting me in ways that I’d need to be aware of. I.e. in a way that would mean talking to my doctor about alternatives, because I want to be able to leave the house without being on the edges of a panic attack, but I also want to continue drawing thank you very much.

When I cast the runes onto the mat I was taken aback by the outcome. Near to 15 runes had freed themselves from the bag, but only one was on the mat. (One even careened off the “table” and onto the floor.)

One rune. One. Out of all those that had come with it. After staring in disbelief for a few moments I thought maybe I should try again, that I might not have hit my usual relaxed groove because the cinnamon incense was so strong vs calming. Or that I was just that off that the first time wasn’t the right one.

But as I gathered up the runes that hadn’t fallen on the mat I got this sense that sometimes even complex inquiries can have a single word for their answer. So the lone rune wasn’t just acceptable, but it was all that was required.

It was also one I’d never seen before, so I wasn’t sure if it was a positive answer, or a negative one. (One day I’ll get these down pat).

After closing the ritual and coming back inside to my book, I learned the lone rune was

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Laguz – the 21st rune, meaning lake, life, leek. It can mean new creativity welling up from the unconscious mind, or a need to basically go with the flow. It can also be an unconscious tapping of psychic or spiritual aid/ability. In spellwork it allows for other runes to work in the background.

I get the distinct impression that Laguz is very behind-the-scenes, whatever it is that it’s actually doing. It also feels like a positive rune to me, that there’s help or growth being provided by the rune but it’s Subtle. I don’t do subtle well >.> But it explains why things felt like they were quiet, or out on the edge, because they were, and not nessicarily because of the change in medication.

Which is itself very reassuring.

Blessings,
Quin

A Little Reassurance

My whole day was off today. I woke up at a later hour than I like, I didn’t get my daily drawing done until later than I like. I missed breakfast almost completely (thank you cup of oatmeal for coming to the rescue). I just barely got all the laundry done and I had planned to do So Much more with the day.

It wasn’t until noon that I did my devotional, and even then it’s 3 hours later that I’m writing this. I’ve just now had a proper meal, and I still haven’t even BEGUN to do the amount of drawing I’d planned on getting done this weekend.

All in all I was just off-balance.

But I went into my devotional with as much positivity as I could muster. These were my gods, my spirits, my kindred, my ancestors – My People – it was going to be okay, and maintaining/strengthening my bonds with them was more important than my pride about being timely.

I’m a creature of habit apparently, and my habit’s a bit disrupted this weekend, but that’s neither here nor there, I’ll manage. I’m pretty flexible like that.

Today’s rune drawing turned into 4 runes, vs the general three. I got a new candle, and by candle I mean beautiful clear candle-shaped lamp that has an impressive flame! A little bit of an intimidating impressive flame, it’ll take some getting used to, but it worked very well, I felt. It provided enough light to easily see by when I shut myself in my little room to cut out the strong noon sun and some of the noises of the day so I could focus.

I gave my thanks, spoke my mind and made my offerings. I meditated a bit, but I’m not sure about meditating standing up so I kept snapping out of it. I’ll have to start bringing a cushion outside so I can sit on the stone patio comfortably. Once I finish my current Norse Mythology book I can also start digging into the meditation guide that was recommended to me, and that’ll probably help a lot with doing actual bona fide trance work.

Anyway, onto the draw.

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I recognized a lot of the runes this time around. Not all by name, but I knew I’d pulled all except the second one previous to this time. It was a new, unknown to me rune, and I wasn’t sure what to make of it.

I knew the first was a symbol of the movement of energy, of turning bad to good and making bad news less. The 3rd if Wunjo – one I do know well by name, and it means joy in a lot of different ways. The 4th I recognized, but had to crack open my book to remember.

Eihwaz – The rune of paradoxes. The rune that can turn poor news good and is suggested to be inscribed on a tree that represent Yggdrasil to you. Remember it as the flow of energy up and down ones spine. Eihwaz is a good start in my opinion – that even if what follows is an outpouring of bad news, the good news is that it won’t be so bad. And if it’s good news then Eihwaz is the quiet reminder of the evergreen yew tree, most commonly believed to be the earthly equivalent of Yggdrasil – the world tree. Which, to me, brings a sense of stability and peace.

Next is Ingwaz – a rune fully new to me. It’s a rune of transitioning, from one phase to another, like winter giving way to spring and so on. There is a give and take inherent in Ingwaz to be mindful of. It speaks of sacrifice, of giving up one thing to reap the benefits of another. It’s generally good news when regarding moving from one job or project to another (Assuming you completed that job or project on good terms).

Third is Wunjo – my old friend. Wunjo is joy, but not just solitary joy, it’s group joy. The kind of happiness that brings a light into a room for friends and family. Wunjo is positive for many involved, and in a negative light it can be a sign of isolation or feelings of abandonment. In this case, Wunjo is certainly cast in a positive light, so little to no concerns there.

Finally, Othala – the rune of family of inheritance, and of bonds. It strengthens ties and family bonds – all family bonds, be they blood, spirit or past lives. I find it interesting that Othala ends the alphabet as well, acting as an anchor for family, knowledge, and spiritual wisdom. The shape of it both protects and acts as a gate. Guarding what’s inside while allowing new information to come in.

When I draw the runes I rarely have an actual question. Most often I ask only for whatever wisdom it is that my People wish to bestow on me. Many times I make the assumption that it will be related to whatever it was that I had been talking about – as, since it makes sense, I would assume that the wisdom provided would be in regards to the concerns.

In that vein I think the tradition holds true with today’s reading as well. I’m concerned about the future, about my faith, and about my job. I know I’ll be okay because I’m lucky and privileged and that even if things go legs up I’ll still find a way to be okay.

But I’m an unsure person, and some reassurance goes a long way to help calm my concerns – be they founded or otherwise. So to receive a message that says – to me – four very distinct things, vs a single idea, I feel like I got my answer/wisdom/reassurance.

That there will be bad, but I can lessen it – if not for myself than for others – and turn something awful into something as positive as possible. That I’ll transition from one job to another, but to be prepared to give something up for the move – either more time commuting, less time in comfy clothes, or I imagine a possible cut in pay. (Which would still be worth it to get away from the toxic people and blatant favoritism.) That I’ll continue to grow and bond with My People and that they’re pleased thus far by my actions and the time I can invest in my faith.

Wunjo, to me, just signifies an overall more positive vibe to the entire thing, like I need to chill a little and just enjoy that things will be okay. (Possibly it’s also assuring me that my visit back home with be joyous and not to worry about how my family will react to the news that I’m an alternative kind of religion AND practicing it regularly. I mean, they’re cool with me being, well, ME, so I doubt this news’ll change anything.)

Blessings,
Quin

Ancestor’s Night

Ancestor’s Night Ritual of celebration and honor – Bolded items are either headings or actions, to make it easier to know what I was supposed to say vs do.

The parts in side parentheses (like this) are after-the-fact notes from me while I write this entry.

Begin Ritual

I am here to honor the gods.

Honoring the Earth Mother

Nameless Mother,
Known to all, and revered.
You stand solid beneath my feet,
Strong rock and soothing moss
Gentle mountains and rolling hills,
Carry me on to the night’s next night.
Support all well, soul of Yggdrasil,
Beautiful blue-green jewel of the Cosmos,
Protector and cradle of humanity,
Honor to you, Nameless Mother.

Offer Rose hips along tree, in well and around fire.

Earth Mother, accept my sacrifice.

Saga, heroine of words
Fine wordsmith with a tongue of tales,
Whose words are like the finest mead,
I ask you spinner of sagas,
To inspire me and give my words power.
Saga, let your inspiration flow!

Offer mead

Saga, accept my sacrifice.

Participant performs A Meditation – (I didn’t do a very good meditation, but I tried. It’s hard to keep your mind blank and think about keeping your mind blank, I didn’t hit a groove – which I have accidentally before – but I gave it my best)

Statement of Purpose – (I maybe was too literal with this, but alas)

The purpose of this rite is to celebrate the life I have, to honor those lives that came before me, and to give praise and thanks as it is due to the best of my ability. To honor the gods and goddesses that call to me, and to honor the ancestors of my life – both in blood and in spirit.

pour a cup of beer for the Outdwellers and take it out of the ritual space:

You who come from the outer dark,
You who stood against the gods and man,
You who are cold of heart and cruel of mind,
Take this and trouble not my work.

Establishing the Sacred Grove through Fire, Well, and Tree

Sacred Fire

Sacred Fire, holy woods
Warm light to fill the hall
Nine realms are known
With my words this night
Let all realms hear the call
Light fires within, warmth to the True
Fire’s flame burns to form the garth
Woods kindle well, with the fire of the hearth.
As I call the Kindred forth…

Cense the fire

I kindle the sacred fire in wisdom, love, and power. Sacred fire burn well within me.

Sacred Well

Holy Well, waters deep
Three streams strong gather the flow
One of Wyrd, the shining ones know
Another yet, icy, serpent-safe
Last of wisdom, many eyes to see
What is, what was, and what will be
Watching sisters of örlog, three
Many eyes look on, watching well.
As I call the Kindred forth…

Silver the well and cense the waters

In the depths flow the waters of wisdom. Sacred waters, flow within me.

Sacred Tree

Mighty Tree, middle of all
Nine realms full its branches make
Much knows Har, High One hung;
Ygg’s steed hight, ever green stays.
Serpent below, eagle above
Squirrel between, Nith-hewer gnaws
Ash-wood tall, wet with white dews
Strong-standing and true, I seek shelter
As I call the Kindred forth…

Cense the tree

Filling the cosmos, cradle to the soul does span the world tree. Sacred tree, grow within me.

Opening the Gates Between the Worlds

Heimdallr, Holy One; Hallinskihdi, Whitest As
Son of nine waves, Sire of Jarl’s sons
Shining guardian, Gjallarhorn holder,
Rune-shower Rigr, Hight Jötun bane
Great golden-toothed Turner of hearths,
Unsleeping reed-giver, Who hears the wool grow
Well-known wise watcher, I ask your help now:
Bïfrost bridge-warder,Open the ways once again.

Sing the Gatekeeper Chant (substituting Heimdall for <gatekeeper>) 3x (I actually forgot to write out the words to the chants, so instead I just chanted whatever came to mind and felt right to say)

Offer Mead

Heimdall, accept my sacrifice.

Let the fire open as a gate, let the well open as a gate, let the tree open as a gate between the worlds, and let Heimdall walk with me in all ways. Let the gates be open!

Honoring and Inviting the Three Kindreds

Ancestors

Ancestors old, Heroes renowned
Blood of my veins, Strength in my soul,
Grandmothers, Disir, Wise watching women,
Weal-bringing warders, I offer you welcome.
Grandfathers, Alfar, light-alf, dark-alf, black-alf,
Weal-bringing warders, I offer you welcome.
Great heroes of eld, might-memory knows,
Your valor shines still, I offer you welcome.
O Ancestors of blood and heart, I call you forth!

Sing Mothers and Fathers of Old 1x -(I actually forgot to write out the words to the chants, so instead I just chanted whatever came to mind and felt right to say)

Pour Mead into offering shell

Ancestors, accept my sacrifice.

Nature Sprits

Land spirits, Keepers of place,
Wise with weather, your knowledge runs deep.
Luck and prosperity, your blessings fall,
Honor to you, I bring this night.
Dragons great, Ancient as earth,
Boulder-homed, Water-homed,
Land homes old, Guardians true,
Your strength is strong still, I offer you welcome.
O Spirit dragons great and small of the natural world, I call you forth!
(I use dragons because it’s pretty ingrained. I’ve pictured dragons as a force of life for most of my own life. Not the d&d kill the ancient wyrm kind, but more as gentle and powerful manifestations of nature.)

Sing Fur and Feather 1x (I actually forgot to write out the words to the chants, so instead I just chanted whatever came to mind and felt right to say)

Pour Mead into offering shell

Nature Dragons, accept my sacrifice.

Gods and Goddesses

Aesir, Vanir, Shining Ones all,
On Itha Plain met, Many moons past,
Of Ask and Embla, My ancestors first,
Many things made, Of the gods we all come.
None of you gods, is not mighty indeed,
Of soul, sense, and being you have given us well,
Taught us of runes, of faith and troth,
Of right-mindfulness, and honor true,
O Shining Ones of magic and might, I call you forth!

Sing Hail All the Gods 1x ( again, I actually forgot to write out the words to the chants, so instead I just chanted whatever came to mind and felt right to say)

Overfill offering shell with Mead.

Gods and goddesses, accept my sacrifice.

Meditation of Merging the Energies and Re-Centering

Honoring the Spirits of the Occasion

Make offering of tea to Grandmother.

Dear Grandmother, I know these words are not your ritual,
I know these gods are not the name of your God.
Yours is mine, though I see and honor them differently.
Yours is mine, though my prayers are said differently.
Yours is mine, a pious life of kindness and acceptance.
Yours is mine, and within these rituals I have found peace.
I make this offering that you will come and share in this peace with me.
I am you, and the stars, and the spirits, and the gods, and you and they are me.
The Cosmos cocoons us all, as the Fire, the Well and the Tree give us strength and life.
We share stars – the lights of the gods, the gifts of life – and are bound by this.
I honor you, in the halls you now dance and delight in, and know that you are never far.
General Praise Offerings to the Kindred

I have called the Kindred here today and it is right to give them praise: A round for the ancestors Share a drink, a round for the nature spirits Share a drink , and a round for the gods Share a drink.

Shining Ones, Noble Ones, and Mighty Ones, I have given you praise and honor! A gift calls for a gift, and I pray to you as I offer up these sacrifices. Accept them, open my heart, and give to me of your blessings.

Quietly chant Come Druids All (1x) (as before, I didn’t recite anything specific, but I did meditate and honestly kind of space out while pulling the runes. I usually keep my hand in the bag and let myself drift every time I pull runes during a ritual. I figure I’m helping myself more if I’m not really thinking about it)

Take the omen, interpret it, and record it.

Receiving the Blessings of the Gods and Spirits

Wyrd’s well waters, I waited to reveal,
Three women weaving, Scores cut and laws laid,
Women writing örlog for the sons of men.
Well have I witness to the glory of gods,
Giving gift for gift, great ones all.
The waters received, wetness of galdr.
Words were spoken and runes were read,
Wyrd was revealed And weal I await.
With these waters let the blessings flow…

Shining Ones, Noble Ones, and Mighty Ones, I have praised you and received your blessings. Hallow these waters and give to me of your power and inspiration and vitality. Seih den Lebenswassern da! Behold the waters of life!

Drink from blessing cup (Mead is delicious, but at night on an empty stomach I was perhaps flawed in my planning.)

Thanking the Kindred and Spirits

Kindred have come, heeded the calling
Honor was given, and honor received.
Great are my dead, and great are my heroes,
Great are my land wights, and great are my gods.
With each call I make to the Kindred true,
They heed my calls more, and our troth stronger be.
Rite ending, words waning, our troth stronger still,
I carry it well, with me all ways
Honor to the Kindred, for ever more.

I have called upon the Kindred and they have answered! With joy in my heart I carry their magic into my life and work. Each time I offer to the powers they be come stronger and more aware of my needs and worship. So as I prepare to depart let me give thanks to those who have aided me.

Grandmother, Ich danke Sie!
Saga, Ich danke Sie!
Heimdall, Ich danke Sie!
Gods, Goddesses, Ich danke Sie!
Mother Earth, Ich danke Sie!
Ancestors, Kindred, Ich danke Sie!
Dragons of nature and life, Ich danke Sie.

Meditation of Re-grounding and Re-centering (I did much better this time, I focused on my breathing and drifted for a bit. It helped to end things in a very relaxing way).

Closing the Gates and Ending the Rite

Now by the keeper of the gates and by my magic I end what I began.
Let the fire be flame,
Let the well be water,
Let all be as it was before.
Let the gates be closed!

I have done as my ancestors have done, and the Kindred have answered.
I go now, a child of the Earth, in peace and blessings. The ritual is at a close. So sei es!

End of Ritual

I spoke longer to my grandmother than what’s written above. Some things are personal and while I mean to share as much as I can, well, some things you keep to yourself I think. Regardless it was a positive experience all around. It was also the only time in the last 36 hours or so that I wasn’t dealing with my headache, so that was nice as well.

Now, to the runes from the draw. It took longer than usual, not only to draw them, but to make sense of them. I read on them a bit right after the ritual but couldn’t make sense of them. It took a few hours of muddling it over in my head, but I think I ended up on the right track eventually. Which is ironic in a way, because they ended up being about being on the right track – far as I can tell.

Uruz – This rune seems to be more about directing energy already there. To organize it and take steps to make sure it’s basically doing what it should be  – or doing what you want it to be doing. It also acts as a forewarning when you need to stock up or protect against something. Like a natural disaster or loss of job.

Because it’s so dependent upon context, I’ll have to look into the rest of these before I can really get a feel for this rune’s meaning.

Next is Raidho the rune of traveling, of change. Paired with Uruz it’s giving me a strong sense of needing to be prepared for a change in the future. Given yesterday’s devotional plus this in the midst of Ancestor’s Night, I kind of feel like I should be stocking piling on comforts and medications so I can cope with whatever is coming and in that sense be in a better position to deal with it. Maybe even end up coming out the other side of it in a better position than I’d be in otherwise.

Finally, Perthero the rune of luck, chance, fate – the dice cup, the rune caster. When I first read these I likened it to winning the lottery, but dismissed that pretty quick – aside from “What are the odds”? the other side to it is more important. I don’t want to get caught up in thinking that all this positivity and these readings mean that I can just coast. Nothing comes to the person who does nothing for themselves.

At least I’d prefer it to not be that way.

In the end, it feels as if the runes themselves are directing energy toward the journey, that while chance still plays its part, something (someone) is looking out for me and doing their best to help me move along the right path. In my Grandmother’s words, I’d say it’s like I have an angel watching over me.

Which is comforting, given that my Ancestor’s Night was built up around honoring my Grandmother and connecting with her, as much as it was to honor the gods and kindred themselves.

Blessings All

~Quin