Okay so I created this setup on a whim and just really feel like it works well for me in rune drawing. The casting wasn’t clicking with me, I needed something a little more organized.

It’s 3 sections, with a total of 9 runes (I figured 9 was a good thing to shoot for as it’s a very powerful and repeated number in Norse mythology from what I’ve been reading). The top section is the answer to the core of the question, with the three runes in the branches being the supporting cast so to speak. These three runes can impact the core rune positively or negatively, as well as add some insight into the meaning of the core.

The secondary note for the question is centered in the trunk, with the supporting runes in the roots. This functions the same as the primary core, but it won’t override the news/vibes of the primary. It may either provide additional clarification or a warning/hope to heed after the news of the primary section.

The final rune is Fate. It’s a wildcard rune slot that may not even pertain to the query specifically but still applies to the querent.  (I’m leaving this intro up on these posts until I get 100% comfortable with the set up as well. So my fail memory doesn’t fail me ❤ )

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I did this next rune-cast for a dear friend of mine, as I’m concerned for her and her future and wanted not only to ask my People to step in and provide her support, but also to see what advice they had to offer in reaction to the simple question of “Will she be okay?”

At the primary core we have KENAZ – which appears to be Very Dependent on surrounding runes. It can be a destructive fire, or a protective hearth fire, and in either case requires some attention. That said, let’s move onto the surrounding runes and see what we have here.

TIWAZ – Tyr’s rune, the rune of justice and possible self-sacrifice. Tiwaz sits heavily on legal matters, and the perseverance needed for them. There’s a strong vibe of Tiwaz providing success to the querent in legal matters, and at the same time warning that a sacrifice or change might be required to be successful.

Next is ANSUZ – Odin’s wisdom, words, and mouth. Ansuz relies heavily on communication, wisdom and the need for it, and mental or creative activity. Given the question posed and the previous runes, I believe Ansuz is stating that communication will be key, and that communication should be measured and wise whenever possible.

Finally, INGWAZ – the wanderer, the renewing/dying traveler. Ingwaz is cyclical, lending itself well to bringing one chapter of a person’s life to a close and beginning a new one. It has some implications towards partners working together as well.

To me, this top section is both comforting and a warning. It’s saying that the hearth fire is going to change hearths, and that this transition can be dangerous and trying, but that justice and wisdom are with the querent. That communication will be important even if it is painful, and that this transition is a part of the life cycle, but how smoothly it goes it not solely up to the querent alone – hence the notification of partnership.

The secondary core begins with ISA – ice, stasis, serenity. Isa warns against cold anger, noting that it can be far more dangerous and destructive than fiery rage. While there’s strength in the hardness of Isa it’s very brittle, which is of little use when one needs to be able to roll with the punches vs shattering on impact. Isa is a powerful rune and should be handled carefully if being used to cool off hot heels and anger. It could also be a warning that progress will slow or freeze for a time and not to get too anxious, as with all ice, it will thaw and things will begin moving again.

HAGALAZ is the first supporting rune of Isa, which leads me to believe that the chill of Isa will be severe, whatever form it takes. In conjunction with the primary statement, I wonder if this is warning toward the Hearth fire, to protect it and tend to it lest it goes out. (Even a single-person home needs a hearth to be a home vs simply a dwelling). Hagalaz also signals change, and to be mindful of it, so much like the primary portion it offers a warning against the severity of the change and to be prepared.

Second is THURISAZ – another powerful rune like Isa, dangerous if handled poorly. Thurisaz suggests protection at least in the form of getting a heads up in advance. It also suggests seeking professional assistance for the storm ahead, to be sure that the choices made are good for the querent in general. It’s also a warning of complexities and possible aggression.

Finally is GEBO – the exchanging of gifts and energy. Gebo helps pull the secondary message together nicely, I think. Giving without getting can be exhausting, but one shouldn’t need and shouldn’t attempt to track the give and get, it should be balanced based on the capacity for all involved. With the other runes here Gebo feels like a notice that too much giving has been happening lately, and debt is owed. However, freezing up ones giving completely will not help secure that debt, and will instead only make things worse. As satisfying as it may feel to bundle up and hide inside an icy fortress I feel the runes advise against that – warning that too much cold will freeze up all parts of the querent’s life.

Together the secondary runes emphasize the need to buckle up for a bumpy road, they remind to continue to reach out for assistance and advice as needed, and to still attempt civility even if you pull in to protect yourself. While this section is bigger, it’s important to remember that this is all secondary to the primary answer to the question.

Finally, the Fate rune, LAGUZ – ever flowing lake of life. Laguz is very feminine in its energy and carries creativity and healing. It has ties with the leek, which is the European/Asian equivalent to chicken noodle soup. (Like Chicken Soup for the Soul). It can also be a notice to go with the flow and to know that sympathetic help is coming. Given the Lady Business group, I have to say I think this Fate rune is just a gentle reminder that the querent isn’t alone and will always have a creative and imaginative safe space to retreat to as needed. The road ahead will be a bumpy one and have its share of storms and hardships, but it needn’t be a path traveled alone.

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Tiny Protector

In the United States of America, things have gone a bit bonkers.

I get the why, and I understand the fear. I’m not here to talk about the details of my country’s political climate, I’m here to talk about the journey I’m having in ADF and in getting through my Dedicant Path. I’m here to talk about my runes and my relationship with my Gods, with my people.

But in case the current events have a direct impact on how my ritual went.

I spent the entire thing voicing my concerns, my fears, and what I wanted to do. Norse mythology is deep and rich, but it shines in the face of adversity. A warrior earns his place in the next life by his deeds in this – by laughing in the face of his death. They’re raucous poets, great defenders, people of honor.

What was honorable then and what is honorable now is different in detail and culture only, but the pure concept of Honor is unchanged. This is, in part, how Norse Hearth Culture works for me. I am no warrior, I’m no great brawler capable of wearing armor and beheading my foes with great axes. I’m small, I’m timid, I’m woefully disdainful of the mere concept of confrontation. I am, if anything, a great compromiser.

But, I am protective of my friends, my family, and my home.

More to the point I want to be able to protect the people that will need it over the next four years. Not everyone – I’m not that capable – but those I can reach. Be it physically, be it electronically, be it even monetarily. I want to extend the “fence” of my home and hearth to bring warmth and protection to as many people as I can.

I want to be a small, warm, light against the impending dark.

To that end I drew my runes, asking my Gods and my Ancestor and my Kindred and my Spirits for whatever omen they felt the need to provide based on that desire. Would I be successful? Would it even be possible for me to do? Would it matter?

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Eihwaz, Wunjo and Gebo.

Eihwaz is Yggdrasil, the world tree – the protective and stabilizing boughs that cradle the worlds within its branches (I tend to think of it as dark matter – that unseen force that works with gravity to keep the planets and galaxies in place.) The rune can be a connection of opposites, like the small and tiny being mighty. It can also single that a terrible event will be less so, that impending dark will turn to be more bright than expected.

Wunjo is Joy. Joy in work, in life, in outcomes. Wunjo is very dependent on surrounding runes strictly for what kind of joy one would be referring to. I don’t have much else on this rune specifically, but I’ll summarize this at the end and you’ll see how it fits.

Finally, Gebo – the rune of giving. The concept of Gebo isn’t just in the gift but also in the giftee. The idea of what goes around comes around is very strong in Norse honor. One doesn’t hoard wealth, but one doesn’t give when they’re unable to do so either. The idea is that society is the better for generosity and (boy, this touches on the political of late, doesn’t it?) that while there is an expected concept of balance to consider, you don’t point to the ledger to be sure things are even. In other words, as long as you feel – as the giver – that you have gotten back as you need (not nessicarily as you /want/ ), then there is balance.

International news shows the idea of Gebo hard at work in countries like Sweden, Denmark, etc.

What these three runes say to me is this: That not only will I be able to protect as I want, there will be joy in that – and that joy will spread – small, but there. I just need to be mindful that I don’t give so much of myself I burn out, because then I’m of no use to anyone.

I don’t know what the future will bring precisely, I don’t know what damage the next four years will bring. I don’t know what we will learn from this as a country, or what will happen after the fact. I don’t even know if I can do anything more than offer a safe space to my people and a shoulder to those who need it.

But I will do my best to be positive and joyful – in the hopes that the tiny flickering light I provide will be enough to help someone else get through the day.

Blessings,
Quin.

Afraid

I’m going to write this a bit out of the usual order for one of my devotionals, and backtrack a bit as I cover the runes I drew. I’ll end by summarizing the purpose of the ritual, and hopefully it’s not so disconnected as to be intelligible.

Before I drew these runes I did not ask for anything, I asked that whoever was listening say to me what they wanted to say. Because I didn’t ask a question I wasn’t sure that what I drew would make sense to me. All three runes came out together, and so my intent was to read them in no particular order and go from there. Moving around sentences and concepts until something jumped out and said Yes! This is what we said.

For its worth, that happened while I was looking them up.

Ansuz – The rune of Odin, of words, of mouth. A rune, specifically in this case, of communication. Ansuz is a welcome rune to me, a good sign and one that I feel close too – it’s spiritual, creative, and if I’m being honest it’s hard not to preen a little when you draw Odin’s rune. Even if Odin kind of intimidates the piss out of me…

Hagalaz – The rune of hail, change, chaos. In reading, depending on what else surrounds this rune it can mean disaster or act as a warning to brace for a change. Positivity resides on either side of Hagalaz when I drew these, the rune was literally sandwiched in between the other two.

Hagalaz is a warning, and even surrounded by positivity I don’t mean to take that warning lightly. Be it in regards to my love, my passion or my job, I don’t want to be blindsided in anything.

I think, however, in this case the change is internal.

I spent a portion of the devotional admitting that I didn’t understand my being drawn to a Norse hearth-culture. I am not fierce, I’m not brash or a warrior. I’m more a cup runneth over with kindness and sheer terror towards just about everything from Outside to Bugs.

But I had to admit I can be fierce, I can be a warrior. I have planted my feet on a few occasions in my life that were important enough to me that despite a spinning head, pounding heart, or knotting stomach, I knew I needed to not back down. I sobbed during the ritual, asserting that I wasn’t weak, but that I wanted to be stronger, I wanted to be more assertive, I wanted to be more – but I wanted to stay me.

I cannot emulate my Norse gods and goddesses, that is not who I am from head to toe, but I want to be able to honor them better in words and actions and I need to change to be able to do that.

Elhaz – let’s just pull this from the book directly. “[..] almost certainly means protection […] possibly by means of drawing natural powers or allowing previously suppressed aspects of the personality to operate.

I have a fire in me, I know I do. I’ve seen it blaze and shine on a few occasions in my life. But that fire is scary at times, because I don’t tap into it often, so when I do it’s like wrestling with a part of me that could just splash out and light everything around me. Sometimes I don’t want to catch things on fire, sometimes I’m afraid of losing control if I do ignite something in others.

Mostly, I’m just afraid.

A lot.

I’m afraid of making people angry, I’m afraid of letting down my family, I’m afraid of being a disappointment to my mother and father, I’m afraid of losing the love of my life, I’m afraid of not being successful, I’m afraid of crashing and burning with my art, I’m afraid of bugs, I’m afraid of people, I’m afraid of my own MIND.

But for the hour of my ritual, for the time of my devotion, when I’m speaking to gods and spirits and kindred, when I’m making myself a beacon for all things in all worlds and reaching out beyond the Gates, I’m not afraid. I can feel the boughs of Yggdrasil protect me, I can feel the warmth and see the light of the flames of fire that guides me, I can feel the cool life-giving flow of water at my feet.

Looping back to the runes I can almost see the words before me from the draw, something like “I am communicating with you, that change is coming and to brace, but be not afraid for it is change that you want and it will be welcome.”

I don’t know who “I” is in this case. It felt assertive and powerful, but neither maternal/fraternal.

I don’t know, it’s just that it so strongly feels like a single statement.

The main purpose of today’s devotional was to use the tree I’d received from a dear friend at least once before the high day celebration I plan to do either tonight, or very very early tomorrow. From there it kind of spontaneously turned into its own thing, but I feel confident in the transfer, and now I can use my stand in tree as the journal I’d intended it for and leave the other with the alter.

Blessings,
~Quin

Validation

This is about to get pretty personal, and pretty gritty, and has almost nothing to do with searching for one’s faith. So, I apologize for diving into the dark, but you’re welcome to take this as a warning and stop reading here, or come into this walk with me – I promise, the ending is good.

 

 

My biological parents split when I was crazy young – for reasons between them and no one else, in my opinion. When I was almost 6 my father married Woman A. Woman A was a bit of a nightmare, though I will admit she did do some good things for me and her mother was probably the best I could’ve hoped for.

For ten years Woman A was unpleasant. She threw me down stairs on two occasions I can remember, beat me bloody with a spaghetti spoon at least three times, and informed me on several occasions that I was quite worthless and fat and stupid. When I was 12 she informed me that I’d grow up to be a worthless homosexual failure like my mom.

In her defense, I wasn’t an angelic child. Self-preservation has done its best to convince me that what I did wrong was mostly reactionary, but experience has taught me that I can be irritating. Though, I imagine you could argue that experience is based on being who I am now which was influenced by who I was.

Regardless of its source, it took a long time for me to start to realize that I didn’t deserve that treatment. I had my flaws, and I still do, but no one deserves to be made to feel as though the very act of breathing is an inconvenience.

Some years ago, Woman A apologized. Tears, sincerity, and pain as she spoke. Apologizing for what I endured, what I never deserved, what was a flaw of hers and not mine. I felt vindicated for the first time in decades. I thanked her, at the time, and left without saying much, but it was nearly a week before I stopped crying. Twice during the ten years I’d been living with her I had attempted to take my life, and this might be the first time I’ve admitted to that.

Last Saturday something similar happened. My grandfather – a man I admire and respect even if I’m fully aware of his flaws and shortcomings – told me he was proud of me. That I was doing “Excellent.”

I used to joke that most people set the bar _ here, and grandpa set the bar – here,  but if you were Family, grandpa set the bar somewhere in the Title Bar of this post. Not because he was mean, but because he wanted you to constantly be the absolute best you could be. It guaranteed that you’d succeed, and that’s what he wanted for his family.

Unfortunately for him, I spent most of my life feeling like a complete and utter failure, a total waste of space and life and a terrible inconvenience forced upon the rest of the world. So my grandfather’s hopes for me beat angrily against a darkness – made worse by how I didn’t talk to people about any of this because I didn’t want to be a pest.

But here I am.
Vindicated.
By a woman whose apology lifted the weight of the world from me,
And by a loving Grandfather who made sure I knew.

So, maybe not the way I meant to kick off Blaugust, but it is what it is.