Okay so I created this setup on a whim and just really feel like it works well for me in rune drawing. The casting wasn’t clicking with me, I needed something a little more organized.

It’s 3 sections, with a total of 9 runes (I figured 9 was a good thing to shoot for as it’s a very powerful and repeated number in Norse mythology from what I’ve been reading). The top section is the answer to the core of the question, with the three runes in the branches being the supporting cast so to speak. These three runes can impact the core rune positively or negatively, as well as add some insight into the meaning of the core.

The secondary note for the question is centered in the trunk, with the supporting runes in the roots. This functions the same as the primary core, but it won’t override the news/vibes of the primary. It may either provide additional clarification or a warning/hope to heed after the news of the primary section.

The final rune is Fate. It’s a wildcard rune slot that may not even pertain to the query specifically but still applies to the querent.  (I’m leaving this intro up on these posts until I get 100% comfortable with the set up as well. So my fail memory doesn’t fail me ❤ )

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I did this next rune-cast for a dear friend of mine, as I’m concerned for her and her future and wanted not only to ask my People to step in and provide her support, but also to see what advice they had to offer in reaction to the simple question of “Will she be okay?”

At the primary core we have KENAZ – which appears to be Very Dependent on surrounding runes. It can be a destructive fire, or a protective hearth fire, and in either case requires some attention. That said, let’s move onto the surrounding runes and see what we have here.

TIWAZ – Tyr’s rune, the rune of justice and possible self-sacrifice. Tiwaz sits heavily on legal matters, and the perseverance needed for them. There’s a strong vibe of Tiwaz providing success to the querent in legal matters, and at the same time warning that a sacrifice or change might be required to be successful.

Next is ANSUZ – Odin’s wisdom, words, and mouth. Ansuz relies heavily on communication, wisdom and the need for it, and mental or creative activity. Given the question posed and the previous runes, I believe Ansuz is stating that communication will be key, and that communication should be measured and wise whenever possible.

Finally, INGWAZ – the wanderer, the renewing/dying traveler. Ingwaz is cyclical, lending itself well to bringing one chapter of a person’s life to a close and beginning a new one. It has some implications towards partners working together as well.

To me, this top section is both comforting and a warning. It’s saying that the hearth fire is going to change hearths, and that this transition can be dangerous and trying, but that justice and wisdom are with the querent. That communication will be important even if it is painful, and that this transition is a part of the life cycle, but how smoothly it goes it not solely up to the querent alone – hence the notification of partnership.

The secondary core begins with ISA – ice, stasis, serenity. Isa warns against cold anger, noting that it can be far more dangerous and destructive than fiery rage. While there’s strength in the hardness of Isa it’s very brittle, which is of little use when one needs to be able to roll with the punches vs shattering on impact. Isa is a powerful rune and should be handled carefully if being used to cool off hot heels and anger. It could also be a warning that progress will slow or freeze for a time and not to get too anxious, as with all ice, it will thaw and things will begin moving again.

HAGALAZ is the first supporting rune of Isa, which leads me to believe that the chill of Isa will be severe, whatever form it takes. In conjunction with the primary statement, I wonder if this is warning toward the Hearth fire, to protect it and tend to it lest it goes out. (Even a single-person home needs a hearth to be a home vs simply a dwelling). Hagalaz also signals change, and to be mindful of it, so much like the primary portion it offers a warning against the severity of the change and to be prepared.

Second is THURISAZ – another powerful rune like Isa, dangerous if handled poorly. Thurisaz suggests protection at least in the form of getting a heads up in advance. It also suggests seeking professional assistance for the storm ahead, to be sure that the choices made are good for the querent in general. It’s also a warning of complexities and possible aggression.

Finally is GEBO – the exchanging of gifts and energy. Gebo helps pull the secondary message together nicely, I think. Giving without getting can be exhausting, but one shouldn’t need and shouldn’t attempt to track the give and get, it should be balanced based on the capacity for all involved. With the other runes here Gebo feels like a notice that too much giving has been happening lately, and debt is owed. However, freezing up ones giving completely will not help secure that debt, and will instead only make things worse. As satisfying as it may feel to bundle up and hide inside an icy fortress I feel the runes advise against that – warning that too much cold will freeze up all parts of the querent’s life.

Together the secondary runes emphasize the need to buckle up for a bumpy road, they remind to continue to reach out for assistance and advice as needed, and to still attempt civility even if you pull in to protect yourself. While this section is bigger, it’s important to remember that this is all secondary to the primary answer to the question.

Finally, the Fate rune, LAGUZ – ever flowing lake of life. Laguz is very feminine in its energy and carries creativity and healing. It has ties with the leek, which is the European/Asian equivalent to chicken noodle soup. (Like Chicken Soup for the Soul). It can also be a notice to go with the flow and to know that sympathetic help is coming. Given the Lady Business group, I have to say I think this Fate rune is just a gentle reminder that the querent isn’t alone and will always have a creative and imaginative safe space to retreat to as needed. The road ahead will be a bumpy one and have its share of storms and hardships, but it needn’t be a path traveled alone.

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I’m back

My absence from writing here is over! I’m back in the saddle again =D

Okay so I created this setup on a whim and just really feel like it works well for me in rune drawing. The casting wasn’t clicking with me, I needed something a little more organized.

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It’s 3 sections, with a total of 9 runes (I figured 9 was a good thing to shoot for as it’s a very powerful and repeated number in Norse mythology from what I’ve been reading). The top section is the answer to the core of the question, with the three runes in the branches being the supporting cast so to speak. These three runes can impact the core rune positively or negatively, as well as add some insight into the meaning of the core.

The secondary note for the question is centered in the trunk, with the supporting runes in the roots. This functions the same as the primary core, but it won’t override the news/vibes of the primary. It may either provide additional clarification or a warning/hope to heed after the news of the primary section.

The final rune is Fate. It’s a wildcard rune slot that may not even pertain to the query specifically but still applies to the querent.

All that said I did an initial drawing with this set for myself a week ago. My primary concern was how I was going to fit in with my new group of coworkers, and how I was going to fit in with the work itself.

OTHALA is at the core of this. It’s overall meaning is about one’s place in the community/family/etc. It can refer to getting along with roommates or finding affinity with a group. In this case, given the question put forth, I’ll go with “Finding affinity”, and take it as a positive sign toward how I’ll get on with my coworkers. (Spoiler alert, we get on very well so far!)

Supporting Othala is JERA – an all around positive rune (unless the work being done is negative). Jera is, in my opinion a sort of Reap What You Sow kind of rune. And that whatever you sow is going to come back abundantly, be it good or ill. We’ll leave this concept as mostly neutral while we see what the other two supporting runes are.

Next is EIHWAZ – the yew tree, Yggdrasil, the great connector. It could mean spiritual ascent or exploration, and a lessening of negativity – reducing a small concern into nothing, and easing the burdens of larger issues.

Finally, INGWAZ – The wanderer, the renewer. An Ending that leads to a new beginning, sacrifice for a positive outcome – or most pointedly given all other items “relief from anxiety about the change”. Which speaks volumes to me in the context of the question.

So the top portion is telling me that things will go well with my coworkers, and will continue to go positively as long as don’t drop the ball. That there’s a good connection there, of give and take, of working together and growing together, and I should do my best to not stress or be anxious – these are people who have my back and I will eventually be able to complete that cycle and return the favors once I know more.

Secondarily to this is the lower half of the tree.

At the center is TIWAZ – Tyr’s rune, and I get the feeling already that I’m being told less about work and more about my personal life. Tiwaz is a warning to prepare to fight in a legal matter or political matter. Tiwaz generally points to victory in these things, but a victory that may require some level of sacrifice. It empowers the querent to be ready to fight – with nothing legal in my future (no family disputes I’m aware of) – my initial reaction to this news is in line with the current political climate.

ELHAZ provides protection, or at the least advanced warning and luck in the “hunt” regardless of what shape that hunt may take on. This leans me toward this being a statement about something in the future that may still be looming.

DAGAZ is a bright and sunny rune – literally. It’s heavy in ‘Dawning of a new day’ and to maintain a positive outlook toward the future. Whether that process is slow and steady or if it happens all at once.

Finally, ANSUZ – mental or creativity activity in general and verbal in particular. Wisdom and the need for it and a differentiating of spiritual vs physical strength.

The lower portion is warning me of an upcoming storm, but not to fret too much, I’ve got the tools to face it and luck is on my side! I just need to keep the sharpness out of my tongue and create and speak wisely. Which makes sense, people react poorly to knee-jerk reaction inducing concepts. If I can smooth the edges of my anger I can have better discourse with others regarding political issues.

Lastly, but not least-ly I’m sure, is the Fate Rune, SOWILO. It’s my first run in with this rune so let me pull something straight from the book for a moment:

“Sowilo indicates illumination, clarification, the appearance of a guiding principle, change or development after a period of stagnation. It is a beacon of hope for those who strive. The sun rune means strength, energy, life force, success or luck, honor and achievement. It is also the light of truth and enlightened consciousness.”

An overuse of (or dependence upon) Sowilo can lead to very negative outcomes.  “In excess its force leads to willfulness, arrogance, cruelty, and isolation, the clearest example being its use as the symbol of the SS by the Nazis.” (Didn’t they fuck up whatever the swastika was originally? Didn’t they rotate something that was very Buddhist and peaceful to pervert it?)

Sowilo is my Fate rune in this reading. A warning not to get too arrogant, I think, but also a reminder that I’m on a good path and in a good place, and I should utilize this recharging ability to fight as hard as I can against the world’s current injustices.

Fate and Luck

An alternative title is “Fuck Fate”, cause well, I’m just not a fan of the concept, personally.

20161120_064723The four runes on the rim seem – to me – to be literally framing the information within. I’m working blind here because this is only the second time I’ve cast the runes, and the first time I’ve done so without any real question in mind. I’m trying to figure out what it is that my People are saying to me and hoping that I don’t misunderstand. So I’m relying pretty heavily on what feels right and going from there.

Fehu (top border) is generally considered a good rune. Its roots are in fertility – be it of the pocket book, abundance of love (romance) or conception. It can also apply to creativity and general fertility like having a strong garden.

Mannaz – (bottom border) – self-realization, the fulfilment of human protentional and the acceptance of the human condition. Can also signify the need to “tap” into the powers of the race collective and basically grasp the wisdom of all ancestors (OP Note: by Race I mean human race, and not a specific variety of human.)

Gebo – (bottom left border) The rune of exchange. The idea that keeping a tally is bad, but maintaining a balance between what is given and what is gotten is good. Generosity is a virtue, but to give of oneself to the detriment of oneself is poor in wisdom.

Hagalaz – (top left border) A rune of warning, a portent of a hail storm or other disruptive behavior.

Taking the four together as a shared ideal that borders the contained runes, leaves me with an uncertain impression at the moment. I can see how they may work amongst each other, but I don’t want to draw conclusions about them without understanding what they’re framing.

Thurisaz is at the center, or as near to it and upright in this casting. It is either good luck and offered assistance or a warning to take stock and consolidate – like battening down the hatches in preparation for a storm. I find it personally interesting that it’s pointing straight at Halagaz. Either as means to ward it and lessen the rune’s portent, or (more likely I think) as a way of saying That! That is what I’m telling you to prepare and defend against!

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Turning over the remainder of the runes I’m have Uruz, which appears to be backing up Thurisaz, Naudhiz below Uruz and then Perthro which is tucked under Ansuz.

Uruz deals with creation, manifesting and directing energy to create a physical or spiritual outcome. It’s position behind Thurisaz leaves me to wonder if it isn’t directing its energy into the rune.  Or more pointedly directing me to channel my energy into Thurisaz, as a way to brace against Hagalaz and make it’s possibly negative warning less impactful on my immediate future.

Naudhiz – the rune of fate, of the Norns. In readings it can indicate problems that weigh on the spirit or heart. Frustrations and blocks that can become helpful constraints if approached properly. Naudhiz relies heavily on what follows it in a reading. I’ve certainly got some frustrations in my life, though almost none are the direct and immediate frustrations of my hearth and more the distance and impactful frustrations of current political climates.

Perthro – another rune of fate. But less fate decreed by the Norns and more the fate of chance and luck. The possibility that something random may intervene, or that there is a different meaning to be had in the reading itself. Perthro also lends itself to the unknown – either as something the querent is not ready to know, or not intended to know (like an extra bit of information slipping through the Gate.)

Ansuz lays over Perthro – it’s a rune of words, of communication of knowledge and higher understanding. It’s also Odin’s rune, and in certain contexts can be a nod from the All Father himself. It’s position over Perthro leads me to be more inclined that it’s a nod from Odin. A statement that chance and luck will have a big part to play, and to take comfort in that because chance and luck mean that things aren’t written in stone and disasters can be avoided. (Or joyous occasions made even better).

A frame can really change the picture contained within. The cloth I used to cast my runes has a defined border to it and I’ve chosen to interpret the runes themselves with it in mind. Much like how a picture’s “story” can be altered by a modern thin black frame vs an older styled thick golden frame, I choose to view the interior runes based on the information provided by the framework.

In this case, it’s a general feeling of positivity and home strength. Fehu and Mannaz lend to the feeling of personal fertility and growth, as long as I maintain contact and connection with my fellow man – Gebo reminding me that to give is to get, and to be sure not to over extend myself because of Hagalaz’s warning of something impending and looming.

Thurisaz pointing to Hagalaz almost makes me wonder if Hagalaz is not actually a part of the frame, but rather was pushed out by Thurisaz as it warded against it. I mean, if anything can shove something around I’d imagine the rune of the Thor would be it! If that’s the case then the frame is more solidly a border of community. The reminder that we’re all connected, and while I must keep myself in good shape to be worth much of anything to anyone, I must also remember I am a part of humanity and neither above nor below it. Its success is my success.

And that success is both rocky and up in the air. Thurisaz offers it’s aid and protection against what’s coming, and I think Uruz is backing it up in that respect – and directing me to do what I can to help as well. Which is a positive sign in light of any disaster, natural or otherwise.

Naudhiz, the rune of the Norns, gives me this feeling of something unavoidable. A thing too big to be moved around without being affected by it. A feeling of Fate. I dislike the idea of Fate, the idea that good or bad it is unavoidable and no amount of compromise and effort will set things off whatever track they’re one. I like better the idea that my hard work – or lack thereof – is what made the end result, be it bad or good.

Which is probably why I’m taking the Ansuz/Perthro pairing as something more akin to Odin saying Yes some things are set in stone, but you can still make things go better than expected with a little luck and a lot of work.

Whew, over one thousand words on the rune casting itself! So not a whole lot on the actual ritual – but hey! I did get it done when I prefer today vs waking up too late yesterday ^_^ So that’s a plus!

Blessings
Quin

Afraid

I’m going to write this a bit out of the usual order for one of my devotionals, and backtrack a bit as I cover the runes I drew. I’ll end by summarizing the purpose of the ritual, and hopefully it’s not so disconnected as to be intelligible.

Before I drew these runes I did not ask for anything, I asked that whoever was listening say to me what they wanted to say. Because I didn’t ask a question I wasn’t sure that what I drew would make sense to me. All three runes came out together, and so my intent was to read them in no particular order and go from there. Moving around sentences and concepts until something jumped out and said Yes! This is what we said.

For its worth, that happened while I was looking them up.

Ansuz – The rune of Odin, of words, of mouth. A rune, specifically in this case, of communication. Ansuz is a welcome rune to me, a good sign and one that I feel close too – it’s spiritual, creative, and if I’m being honest it’s hard not to preen a little when you draw Odin’s rune. Even if Odin kind of intimidates the piss out of me…

Hagalaz – The rune of hail, change, chaos. In reading, depending on what else surrounds this rune it can mean disaster or act as a warning to brace for a change. Positivity resides on either side of Hagalaz when I drew these, the rune was literally sandwiched in between the other two.

Hagalaz is a warning, and even surrounded by positivity I don’t mean to take that warning lightly. Be it in regards to my love, my passion or my job, I don’t want to be blindsided in anything.

I think, however, in this case the change is internal.

I spent a portion of the devotional admitting that I didn’t understand my being drawn to a Norse hearth-culture. I am not fierce, I’m not brash or a warrior. I’m more a cup runneth over with kindness and sheer terror towards just about everything from Outside to Bugs.

But I had to admit I can be fierce, I can be a warrior. I have planted my feet on a few occasions in my life that were important enough to me that despite a spinning head, pounding heart, or knotting stomach, I knew I needed to not back down. I sobbed during the ritual, asserting that I wasn’t weak, but that I wanted to be stronger, I wanted to be more assertive, I wanted to be more – but I wanted to stay me.

I cannot emulate my Norse gods and goddesses, that is not who I am from head to toe, but I want to be able to honor them better in words and actions and I need to change to be able to do that.

Elhaz – let’s just pull this from the book directly. “[..] almost certainly means protection […] possibly by means of drawing natural powers or allowing previously suppressed aspects of the personality to operate.

I have a fire in me, I know I do. I’ve seen it blaze and shine on a few occasions in my life. But that fire is scary at times, because I don’t tap into it often, so when I do it’s like wrestling with a part of me that could just splash out and light everything around me. Sometimes I don’t want to catch things on fire, sometimes I’m afraid of losing control if I do ignite something in others.

Mostly, I’m just afraid.

A lot.

I’m afraid of making people angry, I’m afraid of letting down my family, I’m afraid of being a disappointment to my mother and father, I’m afraid of losing the love of my life, I’m afraid of not being successful, I’m afraid of crashing and burning with my art, I’m afraid of bugs, I’m afraid of people, I’m afraid of my own MIND.

But for the hour of my ritual, for the time of my devotion, when I’m speaking to gods and spirits and kindred, when I’m making myself a beacon for all things in all worlds and reaching out beyond the Gates, I’m not afraid. I can feel the boughs of Yggdrasil protect me, I can feel the warmth and see the light of the flames of fire that guides me, I can feel the cool life-giving flow of water at my feet.

Looping back to the runes I can almost see the words before me from the draw, something like “I am communicating with you, that change is coming and to brace, but be not afraid for it is change that you want and it will be welcome.”

I don’t know who “I” is in this case. It felt assertive and powerful, but neither maternal/fraternal.

I don’t know, it’s just that it so strongly feels like a single statement.

The main purpose of today’s devotional was to use the tree I’d received from a dear friend at least once before the high day celebration I plan to do either tonight, or very very early tomorrow. From there it kind of spontaneously turned into its own thing, but I feel confident in the transfer, and now I can use my stand in tree as the journal I’d intended it for and leave the other with the alter.

Blessings,
~Quin

Gift of the Grandmother

I had a third Devotional, technically speaking, that I did right at sunrise and something about it felt wrong to write about, so I didn’t. I also kind of realized that instead of counting these, as though some growing numerical tally would lend itself to some odd sense of credibility or wisdom on my part, it was best to just date them. But then it dawned on me that the blog site does that for me and perhaps even better would be to summarize in the title. (Seriously, I’ll get a system eventually).

This morning’s devotional was more of working my way up to the upcoming High Holiday this 31st. While my hearth culture is definitely Norse, my surroundings are the desert, not the most ideal place to welcome in Winter Nights. It gets cold around here at night during the winter, but as I was born much farther north than this, it doesn’t get that cold.

Besides, I am close to my family, and wanting to be closer to my ancestors is one of the many reasons I’ve sought this way of worship. I don’t know if it’s selfish of me, but I mean to honor my grandmother primarily, and then work my way along from there. These rituals aren’t her rituals, and these gods weren’t her gods, but if ever there was someone to watch over me, it was her, and I want the chance to talk about things and to honor her and those who came before me.

So today I went through a little more detail, today I gave an extra offering, and today I asked for nothing in particular in return as I drew the runes. Once I’m more comfortable in my rituals I will actually detail out what I do during them. It still feels like crawling at this point, but I’ll get there.

Again, the message was positive. Either I’m projecting my natural optimism on these rune readings OR they’re legitimately continually good signs. My statistical brain is still struggling against this, and expects that probability will come back to haunt me at some point. But in that statement is the assumption that the runes are drawn in a scientifically random way, vs occurring via the will of the ancestors, gods and whoever else is paying me heed during these devotionals.

As I’ve mentioned before this journey is, in part, to help me reconcile two sides of the same thing inside my own brain. For to me there is no science without magic and no magic without science, and I can’t see how you could revere one and not the other. The idea is to do so in equal measure, for ultimately balance is the importance of it.

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Well, what a start for this! Thor, then Odin – Thurisaz and Ansuz.

Thurisaz has some heavy meanings to it, believed to cover both Thor and the Thurs that he fought against. (Believe me I’ll never look at Thursday the same way again.) It’s a powerful run in magic, but in this instance – as for a reading – it’s meaning is more dependent upon what follows. As it can be greater luck and greater good, or advise caution for tiding that aren’t as positive. Since it’s followed immediately by Odin’s Rune – Ansuz – which is very strong in a spiritual sense, and even in a more practical reading refers to old knowledge.

Like the kind one would receive from one’s Ancestors.

Normally in a reading – I say normally, like I’ve done this a thousand times, ha! – it feels like the three runes together are giving me an insight over all. Like reading a sentence or a paragraph; there’s a connection between the three that tell a definite story.

In this morning’s reading it feels less like reading a sentence, and more like watching the first two runes infuse and strength the final. Like a line of people with buckets of water, moving a higher volume of water with their bucket line than would be possible by merely running back and forth.

And both lead to Wunjo – the rune of joy and bliss.  Taking Up the Runes by Paxson, has a lot to say about Wunjo. Joy in friendship, in strong family bonds, in spirituality, in gifts and life. It cautions fleetingly against complacency in these gifts (Don’t get too fat on the hog, one day you may need to run to save yourself!), but to not worry overmuch and enjoy them, give thanks, etc.

With what leads up to Wunjo I feel like I get bombarded with a lot of meanings for this final rune. I have a strong sense of approval toward how I intend to celebrate the upcoming Ancestor’s Night, and that I mean to begin – officially – my Dedicant’s Path on that day is seen positively as well. I can almost feel my Grandmother’s embrace coming to me through Wunjo, and it feels like a blessing.

The after thought, the feeling that lingers quietly after the initial impressions however, is one that I should focus on the runes and reading them, and utilizing them more often. It’s this wispy kind of tug, like soft spider threads in the back of my mind, and I’m just beginning to know enough to recognize them. That while the news, gifts, and omens they impart may not always be positive, that I will find personal bliss in being a scholar in their meanings.

But, I worry about arrogance too – that maybe my own desires are bouncing back at me in those small little wisps and that they are small because they’re not really part of the gift. For better or worse, time will tell! All I can do is walk the path I feel is the best, and pay the consequences if I’m wrong.

Blessings,
~Quin.

Second Devotional

I felt a little bit more like I had some idea of what I was doing. The awkwardness wasn’t nearly as heavy this morning as I was setting everything up. (I did have to go back and forth a couple times, I need a better system for getting going. i.e. I don’t have a set altar area yet, because of space constraints and the two deviously wonderful kittens I live with)

I still don’t have an outline printed out to go along with, but that’s okay. I incorporated some of the things I’d picked up spending hours reading the ADF.org website. I did my best to follow the general steps and even remembered to give thanks and not rush my offerings.

Fire, Tree, and Well were set, an offering to the Outdwellers was provided outside the ritual space (I’m kind of lucky at the moment the patio I utilize has a deep dividing line between one portion and the other). I asked for Heimdall’s help in opening the gate – this time I remembered some of his titles, and thanked for the help offering some incense for his time.

I spoke – babbled – again for a while, trying to find myself well enough to provide the right honor and devotion in return. I shared water with the Ancestors and the ritual began to feel more right.

I meditated – rudimentary I’m sure – for a few moments. I saw myself as a featureless grey human shape, sitting on a slightly different grey plane. Stars began to fill in the upper part of what I could see in a blue-purple streak. Something about it felt like a rush of … wind, water, I’m not sure, but it was enough to cause my eyes to open and my body to flinch.

I was a little sad because it felt like I was close to touching on something, but I couldn’t find the moment again even though I tried. I gave thanks for the vision(?) and then began to focus on what I wanted or was hoping for from the runes.

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Othala was the first run I pulled when I got to that part of the devotional. I didn’t remember its name when I pulled it, but I recognized it from my First Devotional and took it as a good sign. Family. I had been asking about family before I pulled from the bag, and in a spiritual sense, no less. I lost my grandmother a couple years back and I was – am – hoping she’ll be available to me for guidance. ADF isn’t something she even knew of, but she was a devoted and pious woman in life – open and non-judgmental, caring, giving, and quiet in her reverence. If ever there is a soul I hope to honor and resonant with, it is hers. So  softly strong and defiantly voracious.

Next was Ehwaz, which I’d not pulled before, so I was fully clueless at the time. Change or movement – travel or development either spiritually or physically or an increase in capacity in the spiritual or physical realms as a result of cooperation with another.
Instinctively I know that change is hard. Even when it’s good it never seems to be easy or simple, but it’s a transition that we face constantly. I want this change, I’m ready to face this challenge – I need a challenge. Too often do I find a rut and slip into it peacefully. I’m aware of this flaw and I know I’ll need help in moving forward. This is a thing I want to grow in, and this rune feels like acknowledgement that I will have help. Maybe not from my grandmother, or maybe not just from her, but I’ll take whatever help I can get.

Finally, Ansuz, and… I don’t know. I’ve read the passages in the book several times. It’s muddy and clouded and it’s not making sense to me right now. Something about planes and creativity and I can appreciate both of those, but the connection feels like smoke and I don’t know what to do with it right now.