I’m back

My absence from writing here is over! I’m back in the saddle again =D

Okay so I created this setup on a whim and just really feel like it works well for me in rune drawing. The casting wasn’t clicking with me, I needed something a little more organized.

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It’s 3 sections, with a total of 9 runes (I figured 9 was a good thing to shoot for as it’s a very powerful and repeated number in Norse mythology from what I’ve been reading). The top section is the answer to the core of the question, with the three runes in the branches being the supporting cast so to speak. These three runes can impact the core rune positively or negatively, as well as add some insight into the meaning of the core.

The secondary note for the question is centered in the trunk, with the supporting runes in the roots. This functions the same as the primary core, but it won’t override the news/vibes of the primary. It may either provide additional clarification or a warning/hope to heed after the news of the primary section.

The final rune is Fate. It’s a wildcard rune slot that may not even pertain to the query specifically but still applies to the querent.

All that said I did an initial drawing with this set for myself a week ago. My primary concern was how I was going to fit in with my new group of coworkers, and how I was going to fit in with the work itself.

OTHALA is at the core of this. It’s overall meaning is about one’s place in the community/family/etc. It can refer to getting along with roommates or finding affinity with a group. In this case, given the question put forth, I’ll go with “Finding affinity”, and take it as a positive sign toward how I’ll get on with my coworkers. (Spoiler alert, we get on very well so far!)

Supporting Othala is JERA – an all around positive rune (unless the work being done is negative). Jera is, in my opinion a sort of Reap What You Sow kind of rune. And that whatever you sow is going to come back abundantly, be it good or ill. We’ll leave this concept as mostly neutral while we see what the other two supporting runes are.

Next is EIHWAZ – the yew tree, Yggdrasil, the great connector. It could mean spiritual ascent or exploration, and a lessening of negativity – reducing a small concern into nothing, and easing the burdens of larger issues.

Finally, INGWAZ – The wanderer, the renewer. An Ending that leads to a new beginning, sacrifice for a positive outcome – or most pointedly given all other items “relief from anxiety about the change”. Which speaks volumes to me in the context of the question.

So the top portion is telling me that things will go well with my coworkers, and will continue to go positively as long as don’t drop the ball. That there’s a good connection there, of give and take, of working together and growing together, and I should do my best to not stress or be anxious – these are people who have my back and I will eventually be able to complete that cycle and return the favors once I know more.

Secondarily to this is the lower half of the tree.

At the center is TIWAZ – Tyr’s rune, and I get the feeling already that I’m being told less about work and more about my personal life. Tiwaz is a warning to prepare to fight in a legal matter or political matter. Tiwaz generally points to victory in these things, but a victory that may require some level of sacrifice. It empowers the querent to be ready to fight – with nothing legal in my future (no family disputes I’m aware of) – my initial reaction to this news is in line with the current political climate.

ELHAZ provides protection, or at the least advanced warning and luck in the “hunt” regardless of what shape that hunt may take on. This leans me toward this being a statement about something in the future that may still be looming.

DAGAZ is a bright and sunny rune – literally. It’s heavy in ‘Dawning of a new day’ and to maintain a positive outlook toward the future. Whether that process is slow and steady or if it happens all at once.

Finally, ANSUZ – mental or creativity activity in general and verbal in particular. Wisdom and the need for it and a differentiating of spiritual vs physical strength.

The lower portion is warning me of an upcoming storm, but not to fret too much, I’ve got the tools to face it and luck is on my side! I just need to keep the sharpness out of my tongue and create and speak wisely. Which makes sense, people react poorly to knee-jerk reaction inducing concepts. If I can smooth the edges of my anger I can have better discourse with others regarding political issues.

Lastly, but not least-ly I’m sure, is the Fate Rune, SOWILO. It’s my first run in with this rune so let me pull something straight from the book for a moment:

“Sowilo indicates illumination, clarification, the appearance of a guiding principle, change or development after a period of stagnation. It is a beacon of hope for those who strive. The sun rune means strength, energy, life force, success or luck, honor and achievement. It is also the light of truth and enlightened consciousness.”

An overuse of (or dependence upon) Sowilo can lead to very negative outcomes.  “In excess its force leads to willfulness, arrogance, cruelty, and isolation, the clearest example being its use as the symbol of the SS by the Nazis.” (Didn’t they fuck up whatever the swastika was originally? Didn’t they rotate something that was very Buddhist and peaceful to pervert it?)

Sowilo is my Fate rune in this reading. A warning not to get too arrogant, I think, but also a reminder that I’m on a good path and in a good place, and I should utilize this recharging ability to fight as hard as I can against the world’s current injustices.

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All Signs Point Here

So I tried something different with my runes this morning (Took me most of the day to get around to putting this to words, it’s been a crummy day of little to no motivation, yay female month time @_@ ) and instead of drawing three I cast them onto a gift I use as my Tree for the rituals.

It felt clumsy, because I was afraid of tossing runes with abandoned and then needing to like, move furniture to get to them ^^; Or breaking one, I haven’t been hard on these runes, I’m concerned about getting too zealous.

The rune casting aside it was a typical ritual for me. Not nearly as intricate as Ancestor’s Night, but more like my usual weekend rituals. As per the norm it was very calming, and for once I had a pointed and focused question to ask – unlike usual where I either don’t really have anything looming overhead and I don’t trust my green horn level ability to properly read runes if I did ask something specific.

But after a hearty round of bourbon for me and my gods (Norse Gods are such fun drinkers), and a cup of rose-hip tea for my ancestors, I cast the runes.

I pulled twice, as per my usual I just kind of went with A) what felt right, and B) what my body moved to do. I was apprehensive because it was a new thing for me, but at the same time I did my best to let my conscious mind kind of… well, Slip is the best word I have for it, and let my subconscious do the driving.

I’ve gotten a little loopy doing this while standing, since I changed my alter platform from sitting on the patio to standing in the laundry room (which is off the patio and still as outside as I can get and still be in a private-ish setting). So I may have to sit for the omen portion of the ritual, which means investing in – or trying to make – a casting mat of some kind. I might tap the same friend that made my tree, she’s uber talented.

Anyway, back to the casting. I’m looking to change jobs, but I’m not sure if I should try to stick it out where I am. So my rather specific question was if it was a wise idea to basically pour everything into this new opportunity or buckle up and dig in where I currently am. Which, given the negative personality traits of some of my coworkers, it wasn’t the route I was keen on taking.

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I found it interesting that the overall look of it was very Arrow like. I wasn’t sure if that meant that the reading was emphasizing the “point” rune over the others, or if I was meant to take the overall reading as very straight forward.

Or if it was a matter of direction. Or nothing at all.

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I flipped the overturned runes. Like a good friend of mine I do find something right in reading them a little differently. Not as meaning the opposite, but as meaning something more subtle compared to the rest of the casting.

The “root” of the arrow, is the X – Gebo, the rune of the Gift, be it spiritually, materially, or emotionally – or any way really. Gebo can also hint toward balance, the idea of not giving more than you can, or warning against hording with gifts should be given. Overall it has a positive vibe when regarding jobs or contracts.

The next step is Mannaz – which I have a hard time getting. It’s in regards to the human condition and/or identity. Since it follows Gebo in the flow it’s possible this is a gentle reminder that I’m only human, and to make sure I have a solid work/life balance where ever I end up. (I’m really not a drink-the-company-kool-aid type).

Elhaz was initially face down, but I’ve seen this one before and knew it was positive. Elhaz is good luck, mostly in that the querent will be protected, or at the least warned. If I’m assuming that face down means less prominent, then it’s a small warning, or that there’s not much to protect me from in this issue and I shouldn’t feel threatened at my current job – even while transitioning to the new position if I get it.

Wunjo starts the arrow head portion, or the crux of the cross if you want to look at it that way. Generally Wunjo is a sign that surrounding runes should be taken in a positive light. Considering more than half the runes in the reading are surrounding Wunjo, I’m taking this as the best possible of signs.

The left tip of the arrow (upper in the picture looks a bit like a Z) is Eihwaz – Meaning a worse issue will be lessened. So that whatever bad may happen or whatever concerns there are, they won’t be as bad as you might think. This is a great omen to get for me right now, when feminine “joys” make me less of an optimist for a few days.

The right tip of the arrow is Thurisaz – Thor’s rune, good luck but with a warning. That warning generally being akin to Don’t Get Too Cocky, and make sure to take stock of your available tools and options. Which is good advice, I tend to get a little loose at work when I know I’ve got one foot out the door. I won’t do myself any favors if I lose my job before I find another just because I get haughty.

And the arrow point itself, originally faced down is Berkano – A hidden rune of transformation and growth. Significant when beginning new enterprises, and considered a strong rune when dealing with the feminine and/or girls themselves.

Even though Berkano is a rune of unexpected/hidden meanings – which almost makes me want to take it at a stronger value because it was face down – the stronger sense I get from this is that I’m being urged to pursue this new employment opportunity, not necessarily because it’s better or because it’s fated, but because Yes it will most likely be good, and it’s what I already know I want to do. So stop beating around the proverbial bush and go for it – my chances of landing said job are solid and I shouldn’t be afraid.

 

Afraid

I’m going to write this a bit out of the usual order for one of my devotionals, and backtrack a bit as I cover the runes I drew. I’ll end by summarizing the purpose of the ritual, and hopefully it’s not so disconnected as to be intelligible.

Before I drew these runes I did not ask for anything, I asked that whoever was listening say to me what they wanted to say. Because I didn’t ask a question I wasn’t sure that what I drew would make sense to me. All three runes came out together, and so my intent was to read them in no particular order and go from there. Moving around sentences and concepts until something jumped out and said Yes! This is what we said.

For its worth, that happened while I was looking them up.

Ansuz – The rune of Odin, of words, of mouth. A rune, specifically in this case, of communication. Ansuz is a welcome rune to me, a good sign and one that I feel close too – it’s spiritual, creative, and if I’m being honest it’s hard not to preen a little when you draw Odin’s rune. Even if Odin kind of intimidates the piss out of me…

Hagalaz – The rune of hail, change, chaos. In reading, depending on what else surrounds this rune it can mean disaster or act as a warning to brace for a change. Positivity resides on either side of Hagalaz when I drew these, the rune was literally sandwiched in between the other two.

Hagalaz is a warning, and even surrounded by positivity I don’t mean to take that warning lightly. Be it in regards to my love, my passion or my job, I don’t want to be blindsided in anything.

I think, however, in this case the change is internal.

I spent a portion of the devotional admitting that I didn’t understand my being drawn to a Norse hearth-culture. I am not fierce, I’m not brash or a warrior. I’m more a cup runneth over with kindness and sheer terror towards just about everything from Outside to Bugs.

But I had to admit I can be fierce, I can be a warrior. I have planted my feet on a few occasions in my life that were important enough to me that despite a spinning head, pounding heart, or knotting stomach, I knew I needed to not back down. I sobbed during the ritual, asserting that I wasn’t weak, but that I wanted to be stronger, I wanted to be more assertive, I wanted to be more – but I wanted to stay me.

I cannot emulate my Norse gods and goddesses, that is not who I am from head to toe, but I want to be able to honor them better in words and actions and I need to change to be able to do that.

Elhaz – let’s just pull this from the book directly. “[..] almost certainly means protection […] possibly by means of drawing natural powers or allowing previously suppressed aspects of the personality to operate.

I have a fire in me, I know I do. I’ve seen it blaze and shine on a few occasions in my life. But that fire is scary at times, because I don’t tap into it often, so when I do it’s like wrestling with a part of me that could just splash out and light everything around me. Sometimes I don’t want to catch things on fire, sometimes I’m afraid of losing control if I do ignite something in others.

Mostly, I’m just afraid.

A lot.

I’m afraid of making people angry, I’m afraid of letting down my family, I’m afraid of being a disappointment to my mother and father, I’m afraid of losing the love of my life, I’m afraid of not being successful, I’m afraid of crashing and burning with my art, I’m afraid of bugs, I’m afraid of people, I’m afraid of my own MIND.

But for the hour of my ritual, for the time of my devotion, when I’m speaking to gods and spirits and kindred, when I’m making myself a beacon for all things in all worlds and reaching out beyond the Gates, I’m not afraid. I can feel the boughs of Yggdrasil protect me, I can feel the warmth and see the light of the flames of fire that guides me, I can feel the cool life-giving flow of water at my feet.

Looping back to the runes I can almost see the words before me from the draw, something like “I am communicating with you, that change is coming and to brace, but be not afraid for it is change that you want and it will be welcome.”

I don’t know who “I” is in this case. It felt assertive and powerful, but neither maternal/fraternal.

I don’t know, it’s just that it so strongly feels like a single statement.

The main purpose of today’s devotional was to use the tree I’d received from a dear friend at least once before the high day celebration I plan to do either tonight, or very very early tomorrow. From there it kind of spontaneously turned into its own thing, but I feel confident in the transfer, and now I can use my stand in tree as the journal I’d intended it for and leave the other with the alter.

Blessings,
~Quin

Odd Omen

Today’s ritual started off with a knotted back, sore legs, and a tangle inside my own soul to be perfectly honest. I’d had a rough week at work, and my last devotional had gone south, which probably lent itself to the clunky week. I even ended up calling off on Wednesday – not a thing I do – because I felt ill at the idea of even going into work that day.

So today’s ritual was just as much about reconnecting with my gods and goddesses as it was strengthening myself and unknotting things internally. At first I wasn’t sure it was going to work, but as the ritual went on I realized I was relaxed.

When I first got my current job I was pretty excited. It was a decent jump in pay, plus a couple extra holidays and a LOT of vacation time for a new job. (15 days, vs ten.) On top of that I knew I was going to learn a ton of new things in my field and the vibe of the office was a lot more friendly and casual than my last position had been.

Lately though, things are hinky, and I’m realizing that there are, sadly, quite a few phobic-toward-anyone-not-white-and-straight-and-Christian types in my immediate vicinity. The amount of racism, transphobic and homophobic thoughts are unsettling. And they’re subtle too – for the most part, which makes it very difficult to report on, or even talk about directly to the persons involved.

Top on a little good old fashioned technophobia and office favoritism, and barely 9 months after I started, I’m ready to leave.

So, yeah, internally, very knotted up. =/

But, as I said, the ritual went well, it had the intended effect I had been hoping for. I shared a drink with my ancestors, the Kindred, and the gods/goddesses. It was, perhaps, not the wisest of me to share hard apple cider with my faith first thing in the morning on an empty stomach, massive light weight that I am, but someone was looking out for me, because I don’t even feel the tiniest bit woozy.

At some point I was compelled to draw an omen. I asked for signs about my job, but backpedaled on that – my mind is made up, I already know what I’m doing in regards to that, and it feels right, even if it’s scary. So instead I just asked for whatever omen they desired to give me, and if they were so inclined, some kind of hint as to who was reaching out to me.

Someone listened, but since I’ll be looking these up as I’m writing this, right at this moment I don’t know who. I just I know that I usually draw three runes. Today, I drew 5. The first two came out easy as you please, but the last three came out all at once, there was just no separating them while my hand was in the bag. There’s plenty of room in there for my tiny hand, so it wasn’t for lack of trying.

I’m not 100% sure what to do with it, but it feels like those three should be considered very strongly connected when I do decipher them.

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First is ELHAZ, for which there is a very repetitive theme of protection. Be it from an animal-spirit guide, in general, from one’s own spiritual power, and/or as a sign of good luck. There’s a warning against grasping Elhaz, that while it offers protection it can cut those that are rough toward it. I’ll take this as a sign of being protected, we’ll see how it holds up against the rest of the reading, as it could be an introduction to whomever has their eye on me.

Next, RAIDHO, the rune of traveling. When paired with Elhaz it implies protected travel. Raidho is often considered to be a statement of the “right way to go” or that one is on horseback (a mode of transportation, i.e. Raidho) and that it is leading one along the Way. I personally struggle with accepting the idea of fate, and that our lives are predetermined before us – but I do believe that we have a series of paths available to us. With varying degrees of the correct path vs essentially having gone off the path. Elhaz and Raidho back to back like this, feel to me like an assurance that the choices I’ve made regarding my career is the correct path and all I have left to do now is follow through assertively with that change.

Then the inseparable three. PERTHRO – DAGAZ – OTHALA

Perthro is, as far as I can gather, the unknowable rune. It can be tied to luck, to fate, to Figg and the Norns. It is the cup and the well, the caster of dice and the caster of runes. It implies fate, luck or chance in a reading and I’m left with the distinct impression that I’ll not know what this implies until I’ve looked at the other runes.

Dagaz the sun, a rune of positivity and hope. Dagaz in a reading often lends itself to a positive outcome, a kind of stay strong and things will get better sort of vibe. Possibly it means slow and measured progress vs sudden outcomes, and/or a clarifying rune to bring things to “light” as it were.

Finally, Othala. The rune of family, homeland, inheritance, of connection both with past lives and current spirits. “As the final rune of the Futhark, OTHALA “Contains” the power of all the other runes, our mystical heritage.”

My initial feeling on this, even after sitting here for long moments and contemplating things which has left said initial feeling unchanged, has me feeling that it’s the runes themselves that are calling to me. Which is kind of an odd feeling, and not at all what was expected. There’s a fringe assumption that in line with that it does include Frigg, with whom herself and the Norns are closely tied to the divination portion of the runes.

But then as well, Odin himself is very closely tied with the runes, and the utilization of them in magical ways. To be perfectly fair, Odin kind of scares the sprinkles out of me, and I’m not sure how I’d react if it was him who took to me. I suppose I’d need to begin construction of an actual functional backbone quite immediately.

Through the runes as well, is a pathway to connecting with my ancestors, and Kindred and all the gods and goddesses. Very family-esque, very connected and protected. Which is rather indicative of this and previous readings.

At this rate I may have to face my fears, and make from scratch my own runes, though I still say that fashioning tangible items is far and away not a skill I possess.