I think the thing that usually kicks me in the ass when it comes to maintaining a blog is that I always feel like every post I make has to be important.
I run into this with my artwork too. I constantly feel like the only work I should post is the stuff that’s the best I could do at the time that I did it – and as such my posts of art are far and few between.
It’s really hard to continue to tell myself that I am doing this for me, and whoever else stumbles along for the ride then by all means you’re welcome here. But I’m not doing this to draw views, or clicks or traffic. This is a journey, one I did decide to have on what is essentially a public forum, but not one I overtly mean to share with the world.
Speaking of art, however, I mean to only post pieces here that are part of my journey, or part of someone else’s journey that’s helped me on mine. (I get inspired at random times). So don’t be surprised if the art I do post here is even more sparse than what I post anywhere else ( and seriously, I linked my stuff to this blog, you can like, go forth and visit those other places if you want XD )
A part of me isn’t even sure why I’m doing this. I’m terrible at blogs. I’m terrible at posting to sites in general. I draw almost constantly but my tumblr, Deviant Art, twitter and Facebook see a scant few updates.
In some cases I’m just not that happy with what was made, but in most cases I’m just bad about consistency. I forget everything – and that’s spiced with a little bit of I’m not sure WHAT to say or if posting something is far to arrogant of me.
But, and this is a new thought I’ll attempt to hold onto – Those places are My Spaces™ – and as such I’ve every right to post like a loon, or not at all, as I choose. If what I post holds no interest for others, well, the internet is right MASSIVE and people can go elsewhere.
But this… well, this was inspired by some wonderful friends – one who is deep along her journey, and one who has just started – as they travel through life and try to find a connection and maintain a connection with things greater and more vast.
And I realized that I haven’t really understood what I’ve felt in regards to spirituality for a LONG TIME. So it’s time to try and nail that down.
I’m not a structured person. I’m not a daily devotions, morning prayer, or devotee to much of anything. My art is digital, my games are digital, and my whole life is summed up digitally. I don’t think this is bad, not by any stretch, but I wonder – and intend to find out – if I can find the words of my connection through digital means? Is digital really any less real than real if the connection of it is major for me? Will any comfort even reach me without focus, devotion, or structure?
I’ve not a clue.
But I mean to find out.