I’m back

My absence from writing here is over! I’m back in the saddle again =D

Okay so I created this setup on a whim and just really feel like it works well for me in rune drawing. The casting wasn’t clicking with me, I needed something a little more organized.

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It’s 3 sections, with a total of 9 runes (I figured 9 was a good thing to shoot for as it’s a very powerful and repeated number in Norse mythology from what I’ve been reading). The top section is the answer to the core of the question, with the three runes in the branches being the supporting cast so to speak. These three runes can impact the core rune positively or negatively, as well as add some insight into the meaning of the core.

The secondary note for the question is centered in the trunk, with the supporting runes in the roots. This functions the same as the primary core, but it won’t override the news/vibes of the primary. It may either provide additional clarification or a warning/hope to heed after the news of the primary section.

The final rune is Fate. It’s a wildcard rune slot that may not even pertain to the query specifically but still applies to the querent.

All that said I did an initial drawing with this set for myself a week ago. My primary concern was how I was going to fit in with my new group of coworkers, and how I was going to fit in with the work itself.

OTHALA is at the core of this. It’s overall meaning is about one’s place in the community/family/etc. It can refer to getting along with roommates or finding affinity with a group. In this case, given the question put forth, I’ll go with “Finding affinity”, and take it as a positive sign toward how I’ll get on with my coworkers. (Spoiler alert, we get on very well so far!)

Supporting Othala is JERA – an all around positive rune (unless the work being done is negative). Jera is, in my opinion a sort of Reap What You Sow kind of rune. And that whatever you sow is going to come back abundantly, be it good or ill. We’ll leave this concept as mostly neutral while we see what the other two supporting runes are.

Next is EIHWAZ – the yew tree, Yggdrasil, the great connector. It could mean spiritual ascent or exploration, and a lessening of negativity – reducing a small concern into nothing, and easing the burdens of larger issues.

Finally, INGWAZ – The wanderer, the renewer. An Ending that leads to a new beginning, sacrifice for a positive outcome – or most pointedly given all other items “relief from anxiety about the change”. Which speaks volumes to me in the context of the question.

So the top portion is telling me that things will go well with my coworkers, and will continue to go positively as long as don’t drop the ball. That there’s a good connection there, of give and take, of working together and growing together, and I should do my best to not stress or be anxious – these are people who have my back and I will eventually be able to complete that cycle and return the favors once I know more.

Secondarily to this is the lower half of the tree.

At the center is TIWAZ – Tyr’s rune, and I get the feeling already that I’m being told less about work and more about my personal life. Tiwaz is a warning to prepare to fight in a legal matter or political matter. Tiwaz generally points to victory in these things, but a victory that may require some level of sacrifice. It empowers the querent to be ready to fight – with nothing legal in my future (no family disputes I’m aware of) – my initial reaction to this news is in line with the current political climate.

ELHAZ provides protection, or at the least advanced warning and luck in the “hunt” regardless of what shape that hunt may take on. This leans me toward this being a statement about something in the future that may still be looming.

DAGAZ is a bright and sunny rune – literally. It’s heavy in ‘Dawning of a new day’ and to maintain a positive outlook toward the future. Whether that process is slow and steady or if it happens all at once.

Finally, ANSUZ – mental or creativity activity in general and verbal in particular. Wisdom and the need for it and a differentiating of spiritual vs physical strength.

The lower portion is warning me of an upcoming storm, but not to fret too much, I’ve got the tools to face it and luck is on my side! I just need to keep the sharpness out of my tongue and create and speak wisely. Which makes sense, people react poorly to knee-jerk reaction inducing concepts. If I can smooth the edges of my anger I can have better discourse with others regarding political issues.

Lastly, but not least-ly I’m sure, is the Fate Rune, SOWILO. It’s my first run in with this rune so let me pull something straight from the book for a moment:

“Sowilo indicates illumination, clarification, the appearance of a guiding principle, change or development after a period of stagnation. It is a beacon of hope for those who strive. The sun rune means strength, energy, life force, success or luck, honor and achievement. It is also the light of truth and enlightened consciousness.”

An overuse of (or dependence upon) Sowilo can lead to very negative outcomes.  “In excess its force leads to willfulness, arrogance, cruelty, and isolation, the clearest example being its use as the symbol of the SS by the Nazis.” (Didn’t they fuck up whatever the swastika was originally? Didn’t they rotate something that was very Buddhist and peaceful to pervert it?)

Sowilo is my Fate rune in this reading. A warning not to get too arrogant, I think, but also a reminder that I’m on a good path and in a good place, and I should utilize this recharging ability to fight as hard as I can against the world’s current injustices.

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First Devotional

I did my first Devotional today.

I feel very relaxed afterward, even if I felt a little clumsy and intrusive during the ritual itself.

I cleansed the area I was working in (my apartment patio) with a sage smudge stick, asking for guidance while I worked.

I’m sure I got something out of order, because I wasn’t sure if I setup my offerings before or after opening the Gate. I opened it first, filled the bowl with water, lit the candle, acknowledge my stand-in tree, and then burnt the offering of incense.

I babbled to Heimdall, or any ancestors or other spirits who may have been willing to listen the entire time. I went with Heimdall because the Norse pantheon spoke to me the most while I was reading up on things, and maybe it spoke a bit louder because according to a DNA test that’s where the bulk of “me” comes from.

What little I know so far leads me to believe that Heimdall sees a lot – if not everything – if I was going to be a tiny little unsure speck in the vastness I wanted to make sure someone who was good at noticing could hear me.

I spoke about my concerns, about my desire to honor the gods, to honor the cosmos, to honor life. I spoke about how clumsy and unsure I was, and I asked for guidance and help in this journey so that I could both grow and be useful in whatever capacity I could.

Finally, after I felt calm I listened for a few long moments. The clouds blocked the sun, the wind blew – it didn’t feel like a bad omen, there was something comforting about it. More like I was being protected by the clouds and that stale air was being blown away to make room for something new, or different. Something came across my vision, a bird of some kind, but I couldn’t open my eyes to see it until it had left.

I drew three runes and set them in front of myself.  I don’t know any of the runes off the top of my head so I had no idea what I was looking at. I forgot to thank everyone for their help (I think, I might have said something but I don’t remember right now). I took a sip from the bowl because it seemed right to share it and be a part of it – I don’t even know why I did it, other than it felt the thing to do.

I put out the candle, poured the bowl out, and let the incense be. I closed the gate and sat on the patio for a long moment before pulling out a book to see what my runes might mean in relation to what I talked about and felt.

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The first is how they came out, the second is just flipping over the one that was face down.

The first is Naudhiz which according to Taking Up The Runes is a sign of frustrations, blocks, but may also be hopeful as a chance for growth and change.

This makes sense to me because I was frustrated and blocked coming into the my first devotion. I felt lost and was stumbling because of that. Outside of the immediate however, I have personally felt a bit off. Not horribly so, but enough that I’ve been questioning if my art is really the way to go for me. This run makes me feel like I need to persevere in both endeavors, and that there will be times when neither will be easy, but the rewards for my self, my spirit and my life will be worth it.

Next was Othala, and it was face down AND upside down. I’m not sure how to take that at this point, if I should’ve read it differently, but we’ll see. According to the book it’s basically full of meaning – from one’s place in their family or community, to their place in a group or with the land or even to their inheritance (be it land, psychological, physiological, etc), or inner nature and essence.

I’m cemented soundly in my family, always have been. Community maybe a bit less, but I’ve the desire to improve on that especially as of late. I’m not sure about the inheritance, but to me the inner nature and essence just kind of leaped out at me.

It was upside down and turned over, in a knot, like I am. I’m walking along to find myself and to figure out where I fit and how I can be a better me, and it’s like the path solidifies when I plant my foot, but I’m never really sure where to plant it, and the path keeps shifting and changing while I’m trying to make up my mind.

But I’m going to find it, this is the feeling I get from Othala – that I’m tending to things and there’ll be a learning curve, but this is my center, my inheritance, and I’m making my way toward it even if I’m stumbling along the way.

Finally I drew Jera and it’s meaning is summer, the year, the movement of time and the flow of energy.

Jera to me is the last nail I needed. It’s the reassurance that I will find my flow – it’s reassurance that devoting a Year to walking the ADF path was the correct way to go. It quietly assures me that this is the correct path, while affirming that the result will be equivalent to what I give. I can’t just half-ass this and expect a ginormous return.

And maybe – though this might just be me being dramatic – Jera gives me the sense that I have a natural gift for the Flow. Maybe not in manipulating it, but in seeing it and knowing that it exists. That there’s definitively this cosmic connection from star to planet to person to bug to death to life and it’s not necessarily in that /order/, that there’s not exactly an order at all, but it’s all connected. That we’re all bits of billions of stars that are bits of us and there’s this heart beat if you can just hear it.