Fate and Luck

An alternative title is “Fuck Fate”, cause well, I’m just not a fan of the concept, personally.

20161120_064723The four runes on the rim seem – to me – to be literally framing the information within. I’m working blind here because this is only the second time I’ve cast the runes, and the first time I’ve done so without any real question in mind. I’m trying to figure out what it is that my People are saying to me and hoping that I don’t misunderstand. So I’m relying pretty heavily on what feels right and going from there.

Fehu (top border) is generally considered a good rune. Its roots are in fertility – be it of the pocket book, abundance of love (romance) or conception. It can also apply to creativity and general fertility like having a strong garden.

Mannaz – (bottom border) – self-realization, the fulfilment of human protentional and the acceptance of the human condition. Can also signify the need to “tap” into the powers of the race collective and basically grasp the wisdom of all ancestors (OP Note: by Race I mean human race, and not a specific variety of human.)

Gebo – (bottom left border) The rune of exchange. The idea that keeping a tally is bad, but maintaining a balance between what is given and what is gotten is good. Generosity is a virtue, but to give of oneself to the detriment of oneself is poor in wisdom.

Hagalaz – (top left border) A rune of warning, a portent of a hail storm or other disruptive behavior.

Taking the four together as a shared ideal that borders the contained runes, leaves me with an uncertain impression at the moment. I can see how they may work amongst each other, but I don’t want to draw conclusions about them without understanding what they’re framing.

Thurisaz is at the center, or as near to it and upright in this casting. It is either good luck and offered assistance or a warning to take stock and consolidate – like battening down the hatches in preparation for a storm. I find it personally interesting that it’s pointing straight at Halagaz. Either as means to ward it and lessen the rune’s portent, or (more likely I think) as a way of saying That! That is what I’m telling you to prepare and defend against!

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Turning over the remainder of the runes I’m have Uruz, which appears to be backing up Thurisaz, Naudhiz below Uruz and then Perthro which is tucked under Ansuz.

Uruz deals with creation, manifesting and directing energy to create a physical or spiritual outcome. It’s position behind Thurisaz leaves me to wonder if it isn’t directing its energy into the rune.  Or more pointedly directing me to channel my energy into Thurisaz, as a way to brace against Hagalaz and make it’s possibly negative warning less impactful on my immediate future.

Naudhiz – the rune of fate, of the Norns. In readings it can indicate problems that weigh on the spirit or heart. Frustrations and blocks that can become helpful constraints if approached properly. Naudhiz relies heavily on what follows it in a reading. I’ve certainly got some frustrations in my life, though almost none are the direct and immediate frustrations of my hearth and more the distance and impactful frustrations of current political climates.

Perthro – another rune of fate. But less fate decreed by the Norns and more the fate of chance and luck. The possibility that something random may intervene, or that there is a different meaning to be had in the reading itself. Perthro also lends itself to the unknown – either as something the querent is not ready to know, or not intended to know (like an extra bit of information slipping through the Gate.)

Ansuz lays over Perthro – it’s a rune of words, of communication of knowledge and higher understanding. It’s also Odin’s rune, and in certain contexts can be a nod from the All Father himself. It’s position over Perthro leads me to be more inclined that it’s a nod from Odin. A statement that chance and luck will have a big part to play, and to take comfort in that because chance and luck mean that things aren’t written in stone and disasters can be avoided. (Or joyous occasions made even better).

A frame can really change the picture contained within. The cloth I used to cast my runes has a defined border to it and I’ve chosen to interpret the runes themselves with it in mind. Much like how a picture’s “story” can be altered by a modern thin black frame vs an older styled thick golden frame, I choose to view the interior runes based on the information provided by the framework.

In this case, it’s a general feeling of positivity and home strength. Fehu and Mannaz lend to the feeling of personal fertility and growth, as long as I maintain contact and connection with my fellow man – Gebo reminding me that to give is to get, and to be sure not to over extend myself because of Hagalaz’s warning of something impending and looming.

Thurisaz pointing to Hagalaz almost makes me wonder if Hagalaz is not actually a part of the frame, but rather was pushed out by Thurisaz as it warded against it. I mean, if anything can shove something around I’d imagine the rune of the Thor would be it! If that’s the case then the frame is more solidly a border of community. The reminder that we’re all connected, and while I must keep myself in good shape to be worth much of anything to anyone, I must also remember I am a part of humanity and neither above nor below it. Its success is my success.

And that success is both rocky and up in the air. Thurisaz offers it’s aid and protection against what’s coming, and I think Uruz is backing it up in that respect – and directing me to do what I can to help as well. Which is a positive sign in light of any disaster, natural or otherwise.

Naudhiz, the rune of the Norns, gives me this feeling of something unavoidable. A thing too big to be moved around without being affected by it. A feeling of Fate. I dislike the idea of Fate, the idea that good or bad it is unavoidable and no amount of compromise and effort will set things off whatever track they’re one. I like better the idea that my hard work – or lack thereof – is what made the end result, be it bad or good.

Which is probably why I’m taking the Ansuz/Perthro pairing as something more akin to Odin saying Yes some things are set in stone, but you can still make things go better than expected with a little luck and a lot of work.

Whew, over one thousand words on the rune casting itself! So not a whole lot on the actual ritual – but hey! I did get it done when I prefer today vs waking up too late yesterday ^_^ So that’s a plus!

Blessings
Quin

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First Devotional

I did my first Devotional today.

I feel very relaxed afterward, even if I felt a little clumsy and intrusive during the ritual itself.

I cleansed the area I was working in (my apartment patio) with a sage smudge stick, asking for guidance while I worked.

I’m sure I got something out of order, because I wasn’t sure if I setup my offerings before or after opening the Gate. I opened it first, filled the bowl with water, lit the candle, acknowledge my stand-in tree, and then burnt the offering of incense.

I babbled to Heimdall, or any ancestors or other spirits who may have been willing to listen the entire time. I went with Heimdall because the Norse pantheon spoke to me the most while I was reading up on things, and maybe it spoke a bit louder because according to a DNA test that’s where the bulk of “me” comes from.

What little I know so far leads me to believe that Heimdall sees a lot – if not everything – if I was going to be a tiny little unsure speck in the vastness I wanted to make sure someone who was good at noticing could hear me.

I spoke about my concerns, about my desire to honor the gods, to honor the cosmos, to honor life. I spoke about how clumsy and unsure I was, and I asked for guidance and help in this journey so that I could both grow and be useful in whatever capacity I could.

Finally, after I felt calm I listened for a few long moments. The clouds blocked the sun, the wind blew – it didn’t feel like a bad omen, there was something comforting about it. More like I was being protected by the clouds and that stale air was being blown away to make room for something new, or different. Something came across my vision, a bird of some kind, but I couldn’t open my eyes to see it until it had left.

I drew three runes and set them in front of myself.  I don’t know any of the runes off the top of my head so I had no idea what I was looking at. I forgot to thank everyone for their help (I think, I might have said something but I don’t remember right now). I took a sip from the bowl because it seemed right to share it and be a part of it – I don’t even know why I did it, other than it felt the thing to do.

I put out the candle, poured the bowl out, and let the incense be. I closed the gate and sat on the patio for a long moment before pulling out a book to see what my runes might mean in relation to what I talked about and felt.

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The first is how they came out, the second is just flipping over the one that was face down.

The first is Naudhiz which according to Taking Up The Runes is a sign of frustrations, blocks, but may also be hopeful as a chance for growth and change.

This makes sense to me because I was frustrated and blocked coming into the my first devotion. I felt lost and was stumbling because of that. Outside of the immediate however, I have personally felt a bit off. Not horribly so, but enough that I’ve been questioning if my art is really the way to go for me. This run makes me feel like I need to persevere in both endeavors, and that there will be times when neither will be easy, but the rewards for my self, my spirit and my life will be worth it.

Next was Othala, and it was face down AND upside down. I’m not sure how to take that at this point, if I should’ve read it differently, but we’ll see. According to the book it’s basically full of meaning – from one’s place in their family or community, to their place in a group or with the land or even to their inheritance (be it land, psychological, physiological, etc), or inner nature and essence.

I’m cemented soundly in my family, always have been. Community maybe a bit less, but I’ve the desire to improve on that especially as of late. I’m not sure about the inheritance, but to me the inner nature and essence just kind of leaped out at me.

It was upside down and turned over, in a knot, like I am. I’m walking along to find myself and to figure out where I fit and how I can be a better me, and it’s like the path solidifies when I plant my foot, but I’m never really sure where to plant it, and the path keeps shifting and changing while I’m trying to make up my mind.

But I’m going to find it, this is the feeling I get from Othala – that I’m tending to things and there’ll be a learning curve, but this is my center, my inheritance, and I’m making my way toward it even if I’m stumbling along the way.

Finally I drew Jera and it’s meaning is summer, the year, the movement of time and the flow of energy.

Jera to me is the last nail I needed. It’s the reassurance that I will find my flow – it’s reassurance that devoting a Year to walking the ADF path was the correct way to go. It quietly assures me that this is the correct path, while affirming that the result will be equivalent to what I give. I can’t just half-ass this and expect a ginormous return.

And maybe – though this might just be me being dramatic – Jera gives me the sense that I have a natural gift for the Flow. Maybe not in manipulating it, but in seeing it and knowing that it exists. That there’s definitively this cosmic connection from star to planet to person to bug to death to life and it’s not necessarily in that /order/, that there’s not exactly an order at all, but it’s all connected. That we’re all bits of billions of stars that are bits of us and there’s this heart beat if you can just hear it.