Tiny Protector

In the United States of America, things have gone a bit bonkers.

I get the why, and I understand the fear. I’m not here to talk about the details of my country’s political climate, I’m here to talk about the journey I’m having in ADF and in getting through my Dedicant Path. I’m here to talk about my runes and my relationship with my Gods, with my people.

But in case the current events have a direct impact on how my ritual went.

I spent the entire thing voicing my concerns, my fears, and what I wanted to do. Norse mythology is deep and rich, but it shines in the face of adversity. A warrior earns his place in the next life by his deeds in this – by laughing in the face of his death. They’re raucous poets, great defenders, people of honor.

What was honorable then and what is honorable now is different in detail and culture only, but the pure concept of Honor is unchanged. This is, in part, how Norse Hearth Culture works for me. I am no warrior, I’m no great brawler capable of wearing armor and beheading my foes with great axes. I’m small, I’m timid, I’m woefully disdainful of the mere concept of confrontation. I am, if anything, a great compromiser.

But, I am protective of my friends, my family, and my home.

More to the point I want to be able to protect the people that will need it over the next four years. Not everyone – I’m not that capable – but those I can reach. Be it physically, be it electronically, be it even monetarily. I want to extend the “fence” of my home and hearth to bring warmth and protection to as many people as I can.

I want to be a small, warm, light against the impending dark.

To that end I drew my runes, asking my Gods and my Ancestor and my Kindred and my Spirits for whatever omen they felt the need to provide based on that desire. Would I be successful? Would it even be possible for me to do? Would it matter?

2016-11-13-07-18-08

Eihwaz, Wunjo and Gebo.

Eihwaz is Yggdrasil, the world tree – the protective and stabilizing boughs that cradle the worlds within its branches (I tend to think of it as dark matter – that unseen force that works with gravity to keep the planets and galaxies in place.) The rune can be a connection of opposites, like the small and tiny being mighty. It can also single that a terrible event will be less so, that impending dark will turn to be more bright than expected.

Wunjo is Joy. Joy in work, in life, in outcomes. Wunjo is very dependent on surrounding runes strictly for what kind of joy one would be referring to. I don’t have much else on this rune specifically, but I’ll summarize this at the end and you’ll see how it fits.

Finally, Gebo – the rune of giving. The concept of Gebo isn’t just in the gift but also in the giftee. The idea of what goes around comes around is very strong in Norse honor. One doesn’t hoard wealth, but one doesn’t give when they’re unable to do so either. The idea is that society is the better for generosity and (boy, this touches on the political of late, doesn’t it?) that while there is an expected concept of balance to consider, you don’t point to the ledger to be sure things are even. In other words, as long as you feel – as the giver – that you have gotten back as you need (not nessicarily as you /want/ ), then there is balance.

International news shows the idea of Gebo hard at work in countries like Sweden, Denmark, etc.

What these three runes say to me is this: That not only will I be able to protect as I want, there will be joy in that – and that joy will spread – small, but there. I just need to be mindful that I don’t give so much of myself I burn out, because then I’m of no use to anyone.

I don’t know what the future will bring precisely, I don’t know what damage the next four years will bring. I don’t know what we will learn from this as a country, or what will happen after the fact. I don’t even know if I can do anything more than offer a safe space to my people and a shoulder to those who need it.

But I will do my best to be positive and joyful – in the hopes that the tiny flickering light I provide will be enough to help someone else get through the day.

Blessings,
Quin.

Advertisements

All Signs Point Here

So I tried something different with my runes this morning (Took me most of the day to get around to putting this to words, it’s been a crummy day of little to no motivation, yay female month time @_@ ) and instead of drawing three I cast them onto a gift I use as my Tree for the rituals.

It felt clumsy, because I was afraid of tossing runes with abandoned and then needing to like, move furniture to get to them ^^; Or breaking one, I haven’t been hard on these runes, I’m concerned about getting too zealous.

The rune casting aside it was a typical ritual for me. Not nearly as intricate as Ancestor’s Night, but more like my usual weekend rituals. As per the norm it was very calming, and for once I had a pointed and focused question to ask – unlike usual where I either don’t really have anything looming overhead and I don’t trust my green horn level ability to properly read runes if I did ask something specific.

But after a hearty round of bourbon for me and my gods (Norse Gods are such fun drinkers), and a cup of rose-hip tea for my ancestors, I cast the runes.

I pulled twice, as per my usual I just kind of went with A) what felt right, and B) what my body moved to do. I was apprehensive because it was a new thing for me, but at the same time I did my best to let my conscious mind kind of… well, Slip is the best word I have for it, and let my subconscious do the driving.

I’ve gotten a little loopy doing this while standing, since I changed my alter platform from sitting on the patio to standing in the laundry room (which is off the patio and still as outside as I can get and still be in a private-ish setting). So I may have to sit for the omen portion of the ritual, which means investing in – or trying to make – a casting mat of some kind. I might tap the same friend that made my tree, she’s uber talented.

Anyway, back to the casting. I’m looking to change jobs, but I’m not sure if I should try to stick it out where I am. So my rather specific question was if it was a wise idea to basically pour everything into this new opportunity or buckle up and dig in where I currently am. Which, given the negative personality traits of some of my coworkers, it wasn’t the route I was keen on taking.

20161106_065845

I found it interesting that the overall look of it was very Arrow like. I wasn’t sure if that meant that the reading was emphasizing the “point” rune over the others, or if I was meant to take the overall reading as very straight forward.

Or if it was a matter of direction. Or nothing at all.

20161106_065923

I flipped the overturned runes. Like a good friend of mine I do find something right in reading them a little differently. Not as meaning the opposite, but as meaning something more subtle compared to the rest of the casting.

The “root” of the arrow, is the X – Gebo, the rune of the Gift, be it spiritually, materially, or emotionally – or any way really. Gebo can also hint toward balance, the idea of not giving more than you can, or warning against hording with gifts should be given. Overall it has a positive vibe when regarding jobs or contracts.

The next step is Mannaz – which I have a hard time getting. It’s in regards to the human condition and/or identity. Since it follows Gebo in the flow it’s possible this is a gentle reminder that I’m only human, and to make sure I have a solid work/life balance where ever I end up. (I’m really not a drink-the-company-kool-aid type).

Elhaz was initially face down, but I’ve seen this one before and knew it was positive. Elhaz is good luck, mostly in that the querent will be protected, or at the least warned. If I’m assuming that face down means less prominent, then it’s a small warning, or that there’s not much to protect me from in this issue and I shouldn’t feel threatened at my current job – even while transitioning to the new position if I get it.

Wunjo starts the arrow head portion, or the crux of the cross if you want to look at it that way. Generally Wunjo is a sign that surrounding runes should be taken in a positive light. Considering more than half the runes in the reading are surrounding Wunjo, I’m taking this as the best possible of signs.

The left tip of the arrow (upper in the picture looks a bit like a Z) is Eihwaz – Meaning a worse issue will be lessened. So that whatever bad may happen or whatever concerns there are, they won’t be as bad as you might think. This is a great omen to get for me right now, when feminine “joys” make me less of an optimist for a few days.

The right tip of the arrow is Thurisaz – Thor’s rune, good luck but with a warning. That warning generally being akin to Don’t Get Too Cocky, and make sure to take stock of your available tools and options. Which is good advice, I tend to get a little loose at work when I know I’ve got one foot out the door. I won’t do myself any favors if I lose my job before I find another just because I get haughty.

And the arrow point itself, originally faced down is Berkano – A hidden rune of transformation and growth. Significant when beginning new enterprises, and considered a strong rune when dealing with the feminine and/or girls themselves.

Even though Berkano is a rune of unexpected/hidden meanings – which almost makes me want to take it at a stronger value because it was face down – the stronger sense I get from this is that I’m being urged to pursue this new employment opportunity, not necessarily because it’s better or because it’s fated, but because Yes it will most likely be good, and it’s what I already know I want to do. So stop beating around the proverbial bush and go for it – my chances of landing said job are solid and I shouldn’t be afraid.

 

Gift of the Grandmother

I had a third Devotional, technically speaking, that I did right at sunrise and something about it felt wrong to write about, so I didn’t. I also kind of realized that instead of counting these, as though some growing numerical tally would lend itself to some odd sense of credibility or wisdom on my part, it was best to just date them. But then it dawned on me that the blog site does that for me and perhaps even better would be to summarize in the title. (Seriously, I’ll get a system eventually).

This morning’s devotional was more of working my way up to the upcoming High Holiday this 31st. While my hearth culture is definitely Norse, my surroundings are the desert, not the most ideal place to welcome in Winter Nights. It gets cold around here at night during the winter, but as I was born much farther north than this, it doesn’t get that cold.

Besides, I am close to my family, and wanting to be closer to my ancestors is one of the many reasons I’ve sought this way of worship. I don’t know if it’s selfish of me, but I mean to honor my grandmother primarily, and then work my way along from there. These rituals aren’t her rituals, and these gods weren’t her gods, but if ever there was someone to watch over me, it was her, and I want the chance to talk about things and to honor her and those who came before me.

So today I went through a little more detail, today I gave an extra offering, and today I asked for nothing in particular in return as I drew the runes. Once I’m more comfortable in my rituals I will actually detail out what I do during them. It still feels like crawling at this point, but I’ll get there.

Again, the message was positive. Either I’m projecting my natural optimism on these rune readings OR they’re legitimately continually good signs. My statistical brain is still struggling against this, and expects that probability will come back to haunt me at some point. But in that statement is the assumption that the runes are drawn in a scientifically random way, vs occurring via the will of the ancestors, gods and whoever else is paying me heed during these devotionals.

As I’ve mentioned before this journey is, in part, to help me reconcile two sides of the same thing inside my own brain. For to me there is no science without magic and no magic without science, and I can’t see how you could revere one and not the other. The idea is to do so in equal measure, for ultimately balance is the importance of it.

2016-10-15-08-08-56

Well, what a start for this! Thor, then Odin – Thurisaz and Ansuz.

Thurisaz has some heavy meanings to it, believed to cover both Thor and the Thurs that he fought against. (Believe me I’ll never look at Thursday the same way again.) It’s a powerful run in magic, but in this instance – as for a reading – it’s meaning is more dependent upon what follows. As it can be greater luck and greater good, or advise caution for tiding that aren’t as positive. Since it’s followed immediately by Odin’s Rune – Ansuz – which is very strong in a spiritual sense, and even in a more practical reading refers to old knowledge.

Like the kind one would receive from one’s Ancestors.

Normally in a reading – I say normally, like I’ve done this a thousand times, ha! – it feels like the three runes together are giving me an insight over all. Like reading a sentence or a paragraph; there’s a connection between the three that tell a definite story.

In this morning’s reading it feels less like reading a sentence, and more like watching the first two runes infuse and strength the final. Like a line of people with buckets of water, moving a higher volume of water with their bucket line than would be possible by merely running back and forth.

And both lead to Wunjo – the rune of joy and bliss.  Taking Up the Runes by Paxson, has a lot to say about Wunjo. Joy in friendship, in strong family bonds, in spirituality, in gifts and life. It cautions fleetingly against complacency in these gifts (Don’t get too fat on the hog, one day you may need to run to save yourself!), but to not worry overmuch and enjoy them, give thanks, etc.

With what leads up to Wunjo I feel like I get bombarded with a lot of meanings for this final rune. I have a strong sense of approval toward how I intend to celebrate the upcoming Ancestor’s Night, and that I mean to begin – officially – my Dedicant’s Path on that day is seen positively as well. I can almost feel my Grandmother’s embrace coming to me through Wunjo, and it feels like a blessing.

The after thought, the feeling that lingers quietly after the initial impressions however, is one that I should focus on the runes and reading them, and utilizing them more often. It’s this wispy kind of tug, like soft spider threads in the back of my mind, and I’m just beginning to know enough to recognize them. That while the news, gifts, and omens they impart may not always be positive, that I will find personal bliss in being a scholar in their meanings.

But, I worry about arrogance too – that maybe my own desires are bouncing back at me in those small little wisps and that they are small because they’re not really part of the gift. For better or worse, time will tell! All I can do is walk the path I feel is the best, and pay the consequences if I’m wrong.

Blessings,
~Quin.